a clown could get away with murder

[rydnwitahatchet]

well i dont know wether to give up or to try and i cant seem to figure out what i want or what decision i want to make.some things i may do might hurt a person or might not, i might not do them but if i dont then they may be hurt anyways.so i dont know,i wish i could jsu tbe selfless but selflessness doesnt exist so its out the door. i feel so bad about amanda and steve-o, it is so sudden kinda like me and jessica.manda if yo uneed to talk im here for you , i enjoy talking to you.im not mad at jessica for saying yes to him im mad at the whole thing, im mad cause it haoppend in like 2 days and she didnt tell me abotu it, i mad cause she didnt give it any thought but i wouldn be mad if she went with him just hurt and thats ok cause im hurt all the time. its like a routine now, things dont seem to work out for me very well, but some day ill see to it that they do.i need my ben but hes not here cause he has a job now and i havent talked to him in like a week. it sux so bad, but alot of peoplle ahve been helping me, thank you guys,chris,larry, manda,helen, april, tiffany,sarah,and most of all my sexy jew. you all have given me different things to think about and helped me make the right choice. i just dont know what to do with this whole situation and now i dont know if the decision i made yesterday still stands or what.
but on a lighter note my cousin is coming down soon and is giving me a tattoo of the slipknot barcode on my neck itll be awesome. also i just bought a hatebreed hoodie and 3 kick ass shirts.one is of john wayne gacy the serial killer clown, ed gein the serial killer and one of charles manson playin the guitar and it says manson unplugged.its great.ive actually been fighting my self from buying anything on ebay amd i havent in like 2 weeks. tim you need to call me you douche, ive been tryin to call you like alot, so call me skank.
but i think i might write again later so.
MAY THE COCK BE WITH YOU