dissapointment
as always my life never goes as planned... I have been waiting PATIENTLY for my car to get done. It was supposed to be done friday but of course nothing ever works out for me. I still need to get to melissa's house and get my stuff back. I am still debating if I want to put myself in that position because well a part of me still loves her and I am really trying to push that part of me away. I know it will never work with melissa and I because she is too jealous. Anyways my car isn't going to be done untill monday, I had a job on the weekend and now I cant even go to it. I am really lonely right now and I dont know how long I will hold out until I either go insane or back to melissa or both because you need to be to be with her. I dont even think she would go back to me we have broken up too many times. I have a new life that I need to think of though but that life seems so far off and I dont want to be this miserable that long.