WHY DID I FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU?
TITLE: Why did I fall in love with you? (3/3).
AUTHOR: rustyrabbit
PAIRING: JoonJun
SUMMARY: It's my fault to begin with...
DISCLAIMER: BEAST belongs to Play Cube!
“I… I’m getting married.”
It is as if a lightning struck down the silent Han River as I heard him saying those three bitter words. I jolted off from my relaxed position, clearly shocked by what he said. If the words he uttered were a single piece of blade; it would probably be sliding through my heart right now, slowly yet surely draining the life off it. I trembled slightly. I could not feel any of my limbs as I tried to search the words to reply.
-
The now couple finally has their first kiss as husband and wife. If this was a battlefield, I was probably the first one shot. Cheers and applause were heard yet they sound nothing but machine guns to me. My lips trembled a little but I refused to shed any tear. I tried to leave when the ceremony almost ended but my hopes dashed when I heard my best friend calling out my name.
“Ya Doojoon-hyung! Where were you just now? You’re supposed to meet us an hour before it starts! We waited and even saved a spot for you!”
“Ah~ haha, you know I’m bad at waking up. So, I kinda overslept just now. Sorry…”
“I can’t wait to throw petals at them; sigh~ wished mine will come ASAP but someone’s too busy with his acting career to sit down and discuss with me…”
I wanted to leave but decided not to after looking at my best friend with his now fiancé and the happy expression that Dongwoon and Hyunseung wore. All I could do was bit my lip, stand next to them in a line at the lawn and wait for their arrival. I sniggered at the thought of being the only one in the ceremony who looked like he is mourning for someone. Yes, mourning the death of my love for Junhyung.
My eyes diverted its attention to the couple when the crowd cheered and applauded as they made their exit from the chapel. I do not know where to look, torn in between of looking at him or the ground. The sound of clapping and congratulatory remarks got louder as they walked near me. I glanced at him to see if he noticed me and apparently he did, making that same expression I could not comprehend the last time we met.
I am too tired to hide any of my emotions at this point. I wanted to lock away the sadness in my eyes and the disappointments in my face but I could not bring myself to do it any longer. I threw the rose petals at the newlyweds, forced myself to smile slightly and congratulate them. I saw the slight surprise in his eyes followed by a warm smile as he looks forward to his bright future.
“それでも… 君が僕のそば 離れていっても
永遠に君が幸せであること ただ願ってる
(例えそれがどんなに寂しくても)
辛くても…”
“Sore demo... Kimi ga boku no soba hanarete itte mo
Eien ni kimi ga shiawase de aru koto tada negatteru
(Tatoe sore ga donna ni sabishikute mo)
Tsunakute mo…”
(Even though you're away from me
For your eternal happiness
I'll just wish for it
However lonely it'll make me
Or how hard it'll be.)
-
“S-stay happy okay?”
“Hmm.”
I quickly walked away after replying him, running away from what my heart actually feels. He deserves a woman better than I am; someone who would cherish his existence more than I do but what if there is a possibility that he might feel the same way too? I stopped in my tracks in hopes that he would be and turned around if he would do the same and I concluded that he was better off without me.
“Goodbye Doojoonie…”
A/N: Yay~ last chapter is already up! Haha, refer to previous chapters for more information. I highly recommend that you read the three chapters together 'cause it'll flow better I guess. Haha, can you spot my KiSeob anywhere?? I actually wanted to make this into a KiSeob fic with an even heart wrenching plot but totally forgot about them. I'll probably postpone that storyline some other time...
AUTHOR: rustyrabbit
PAIRING: JoonJun
SUMMARY: It's my fault to begin with...
DISCLAIMER: BEAST belongs to Play Cube!
“I… I’m getting married.”
It is as if a lightning struck down the silent Han River as I heard him saying those three bitter words. I jolted off from my relaxed position, clearly shocked by what he said. If the words he uttered were a single piece of blade; it would probably be sliding through my heart right now, slowly yet surely draining the life off it. I trembled slightly. I could not feel any of my limbs as I tried to search the words to reply.
-
The now couple finally has their first kiss as husband and wife. If this was a battlefield, I was probably the first one shot. Cheers and applause were heard yet they sound nothing but machine guns to me. My lips trembled a little but I refused to shed any tear. I tried to leave when the ceremony almost ended but my hopes dashed when I heard my best friend calling out my name.
“Ya Doojoon-hyung! Where were you just now? You’re supposed to meet us an hour before it starts! We waited and even saved a spot for you!”
“Ah~ haha, you know I’m bad at waking up. So, I kinda overslept just now. Sorry…”
“I can’t wait to throw petals at them; sigh~ wished mine will come ASAP but someone’s too busy with his acting career to sit down and discuss with me…”
I wanted to leave but decided not to after looking at my best friend with his now fiancé and the happy expression that Dongwoon and Hyunseung wore. All I could do was bit my lip, stand next to them in a line at the lawn and wait for their arrival. I sniggered at the thought of being the only one in the ceremony who looked like he is mourning for someone. Yes, mourning the death of my love for Junhyung.
My eyes diverted its attention to the couple when the crowd cheered and applauded as they made their exit from the chapel. I do not know where to look, torn in between of looking at him or the ground. The sound of clapping and congratulatory remarks got louder as they walked near me. I glanced at him to see if he noticed me and apparently he did, making that same expression I could not comprehend the last time we met.
I am too tired to hide any of my emotions at this point. I wanted to lock away the sadness in my eyes and the disappointments in my face but I could not bring myself to do it any longer. I threw the rose petals at the newlyweds, forced myself to smile slightly and congratulate them. I saw the slight surprise in his eyes followed by a warm smile as he looks forward to his bright future.
“それでも… 君が僕のそば 離れていっても
永遠に君が幸せであること ただ願ってる
(例えそれがどんなに寂しくても)
辛くても…”
“Sore demo... Kimi ga boku no soba hanarete itte mo
Eien ni kimi ga shiawase de aru koto tada negatteru
(Tatoe sore ga donna ni sabishikute mo)
Tsunakute mo…”
(Even though you're away from me
For your eternal happiness
I'll just wish for it
However lonely it'll make me
Or how hard it'll be.)
-
“S-stay happy okay?”
“Hmm.”
I quickly walked away after replying him, running away from what my heart actually feels. He deserves a woman better than I am; someone who would cherish his existence more than I do but what if there is a possibility that he might feel the same way too? I stopped in my tracks in hopes that he would be and turned around if he would do the same and I concluded that he was better off without me.
“Goodbye Doojoonie…”
A/N: Yay~ last chapter is already up! Haha, refer to previous chapters for more information. I highly recommend that you read the three chapters together 'cause it'll flow better I guess. Haha, can you spot my KiSeob anywhere?? I actually wanted to make this into a KiSeob fic with an even heart wrenching plot but totally forgot about them. I'll probably postpone that storyline some other time...