WHY DID I FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU?
TITLE: Why did I fall in love with you? (2/3).
AUTHOR: rustyrabbit
PAIRING: JoonJun
SUMMARY: It's my fault to begin with...
DISCLAIMER: BEAST belongs to Play Cube!
“Are you doing well?”
“Hmm.”
We stood at an arm’s length away from each other, obviously awkward from seeing each other in the eyes. I must be looking nervous to him. For the first time in life, I am unsure of what to do with my hands and kept fidgeting until I gave up and leaned back on the railing of the bridge. Our eyes darted everywhere but nowhere near the one next to them. Tonight, the Han River looks peaceful but, too quiet for my liking.
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I stood in front of two large mahogany doors, grabbed the large iron bars attached to it and hesitated whether I should be going through this painful process. If I did, I would be torturing my inner self but I would probably be hurting him if I chose not to. I let go of the metal handles and walked down the steps but stopped a halfway. I closed my eyes, took a deep breath and forced myself into submission as I calmed the ache in my heart.
The wedding took place on a sunny spring of March 28. Personally, it was a stupid date to choose from. Of all the days he could choose, it had to be this one. Why am I making a fuss over it? Our birthdays are 197 days apart if you ignore Leap Day and if you halved that number, 98.5 correspond to today’s date. Strange how I feel wounds reopening despite the fact that it never existed.
I opened the towering doors slowly and carefully, as I tried my best not to disrupt the peace. I sneaked in and sat on a vacant spot near the door. I am not sure if it was only me but the air was dry, as if threatening to choke me to death. I looked around to see if there were anyone there that I knew and I saw the other four of my group sitting somewhere at the front.
I was thankful that the ceremony has already started when I arrived. I cannot possibly put on a façade in front of him anymore. I relaxed my tensed face as it naturally moves to a slight downwards position. I began to breathe heavily as I watch the rest of the ceremony taking place. My eyes slowly dampening and I willed myself not to shed even the slightest tear until I am home in bed wallowing in self pity.
I prayed that this was all an elaborate joke as a mean to get revenge for not contacting either of them after we disbanded. I thought I could start my life anew, away from the glaring lights, scrutinizing camera and the eyes of everyone who holds too much hopes and expectations than I could ever handle. Why do they expect so many things when I am just an ordinary human? I closed my eyes as I recall memories of us two.
He did not leave a good impression when I first met him. After all, he debuted from Xing so why would he back out when he already had a wonderful chance? I could not even make my debut in One Day worse of all, the show was aired and viewers would probably remember me as the one who did not make the cut. I hated him for ignoring the chance.
I see him in a better light during the selection process. He was quite the introvert, shy at times but he is a nice person to be with once you get to know him. I hung out with Kikwang most of the time as we are the few from JYP who got transferred. I got to know his high school friend Yoseob and in turn Hyunseung as MBoat & YG were close companies then, I got to know Junhyung who was best friends with him.
Complicated? I know but I cannot help to think of how beautiful and intricate our relationship is with one another. Not forgetting Dongwoon who is from JYP also of course. I am just glad to be part of their memories, family even. I would not be who I am today if it were not for them, especially Junhyung who helped me out whenever I need to go overseas for filming.
The best time we had with each other in my opinion was when we were practicing for Kikwang’s second single ‘Wipe Your Tears’. We were chosen as the rappers for the song and I remembered how slender his body was as he moved to the beat, how his serious expression changed instantaneously when I tickled him from behind. Those were good times, filled with bittersweet memories.
I look at the groom to break free of my thoughts. He looked handsome in the suit and the ray of light shining down made him even more magnificent. It could be me standing at her stead if I made my confession, standing next to him in a black one to match his pure white. I let out a sigh as a sign that it would never have a happy ending if we were both together.
I tried to remember the bride’s name, Hyomin was it? She is very pretty. Is it wrong if I were to say that I feel inferior despite being from different gender sets? I heard she was once an “Ulzzang”, a person who is considered to have the best face. It hurts to know that their features compliment one another. What pained me more was thinking of the deep emotional bond they might have for each other.
A/N: Same rules apply; lilac represents 1 month before wedding took place. It's very choppy right? Sorry about that. I strongly recommend that you guys read it as a whole once I post the last chapter up. Err... prepare for a surprise tomorrow? Should I give you a hint? Oh well, there'll be a surprise in the last time jump I guess...
AUTHOR: rustyrabbit
PAIRING: JoonJun
SUMMARY: It's my fault to begin with...
DISCLAIMER: BEAST belongs to Play Cube!
“Are you doing well?”
“Hmm.”
We stood at an arm’s length away from each other, obviously awkward from seeing each other in the eyes. I must be looking nervous to him. For the first time in life, I am unsure of what to do with my hands and kept fidgeting until I gave up and leaned back on the railing of the bridge. Our eyes darted everywhere but nowhere near the one next to them. Tonight, the Han River looks peaceful but, too quiet for my liking.
-
I stood in front of two large mahogany doors, grabbed the large iron bars attached to it and hesitated whether I should be going through this painful process. If I did, I would be torturing my inner self but I would probably be hurting him if I chose not to. I let go of the metal handles and walked down the steps but stopped a halfway. I closed my eyes, took a deep breath and forced myself into submission as I calmed the ache in my heart.
The wedding took place on a sunny spring of March 28. Personally, it was a stupid date to choose from. Of all the days he could choose, it had to be this one. Why am I making a fuss over it? Our birthdays are 197 days apart if you ignore Leap Day and if you halved that number, 98.5 correspond to today’s date. Strange how I feel wounds reopening despite the fact that it never existed.
I opened the towering doors slowly and carefully, as I tried my best not to disrupt the peace. I sneaked in and sat on a vacant spot near the door. I am not sure if it was only me but the air was dry, as if threatening to choke me to death. I looked around to see if there were anyone there that I knew and I saw the other four of my group sitting somewhere at the front.
I was thankful that the ceremony has already started when I arrived. I cannot possibly put on a façade in front of him anymore. I relaxed my tensed face as it naturally moves to a slight downwards position. I began to breathe heavily as I watch the rest of the ceremony taking place. My eyes slowly dampening and I willed myself not to shed even the slightest tear until I am home in bed wallowing in self pity.
I prayed that this was all an elaborate joke as a mean to get revenge for not contacting either of them after we disbanded. I thought I could start my life anew, away from the glaring lights, scrutinizing camera and the eyes of everyone who holds too much hopes and expectations than I could ever handle. Why do they expect so many things when I am just an ordinary human? I closed my eyes as I recall memories of us two.
He did not leave a good impression when I first met him. After all, he debuted from Xing so why would he back out when he already had a wonderful chance? I could not even make my debut in One Day worse of all, the show was aired and viewers would probably remember me as the one who did not make the cut. I hated him for ignoring the chance.
I see him in a better light during the selection process. He was quite the introvert, shy at times but he is a nice person to be with once you get to know him. I hung out with Kikwang most of the time as we are the few from JYP who got transferred. I got to know his high school friend Yoseob and in turn Hyunseung as MBoat & YG were close companies then, I got to know Junhyung who was best friends with him.
Complicated? I know but I cannot help to think of how beautiful and intricate our relationship is with one another. Not forgetting Dongwoon who is from JYP also of course. I am just glad to be part of their memories, family even. I would not be who I am today if it were not for them, especially Junhyung who helped me out whenever I need to go overseas for filming.
The best time we had with each other in my opinion was when we were practicing for Kikwang’s second single ‘Wipe Your Tears’. We were chosen as the rappers for the song and I remembered how slender his body was as he moved to the beat, how his serious expression changed instantaneously when I tickled him from behind. Those were good times, filled with bittersweet memories.
I look at the groom to break free of my thoughts. He looked handsome in the suit and the ray of light shining down made him even more magnificent. It could be me standing at her stead if I made my confession, standing next to him in a black one to match his pure white. I let out a sigh as a sign that it would never have a happy ending if we were both together.
I tried to remember the bride’s name, Hyomin was it? She is very pretty. Is it wrong if I were to say that I feel inferior despite being from different gender sets? I heard she was once an “Ulzzang”, a person who is considered to have the best face. It hurts to know that their features compliment one another. What pained me more was thinking of the deep emotional bond they might have for each other.
A/N: Same rules apply; lilac represents 1 month before wedding took place. It's very choppy right? Sorry about that. I strongly recommend that you guys read it as a whole once I post the last chapter up. Err... prepare for a surprise tomorrow? Should I give you a hint? Oh well, there'll be a surprise in the last time jump I guess...