January 15, 2008

Jan 15, 2008 10:38

 I find myself looking forward to this semester.  Not in a "God, this is going to be fun" but in a "I am either going to succeed or fall flat on my ass."  I'll come out of this stronger, I think.

Luke called me unstable.  And insane.  And I've been thinking about this.  He's the second person to say my emotions are unstable.  The thing is, everyone says it like it should bother me.  I'm sort of aware my emotions are really crazy.  I'm not sure it's a bad thing.  I'm a really, super passionate person.  I CAN stifle my emotions, but I get no pleasure from it.  I'd rather feel.  So, I'll take the word unstable and just accept it. It really hurt at first, but now... I think it's just one of the things about me that you either deal with, love, or say "Go fuck yourself, I can't take this."  And I'm all right with that, I think.  As for insane... Meh.  Not too worried about it, to be honest.

I've had plenty of sleep.  I just ate a large, satisfying breakfast.  My classes are pleasantly challenging.  I actually UNDERSTOOD something in math today, which was freakin' amazing.  I was so happy with myself, I coulda bounced.  Actually, I may have bounced once or twice...  Eh.

I'm not alone.  I have friends.  I have music.  I'm smart, and strong, and capable.  Yay.  Go me.
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