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1. In one sentence, explain what ended your last relationship:
Last time I broke up with Brandon it was because he dislocated my thumb in his sleep and I thought he was conscious when he did it.
2. What made you smile today?
Not much.
3. What were you doing this morning at 8a.m.?
Trying to sleep through being continually attacked by a cat.
4. What were you doing 15 minutes ago?
Moping around at QT.
5. Something that happened to you in 1985?
I got mad at "the man" for the first time because I wasn't allowed into kindergarten because my birthday was in December.
6. Your prom night?
Never been to a prom. Never would want to attend one.
7. Last thing you said aloud?
"what?"
8. Last thing someone else said aloud?
Brandon talking about some tv commercial to get celebrities to text message your phone.
9. Worst thing currently on television:
Nearly everything.
10. What was in the mail today?
Nothing for me.
11. How many different beverages have you drank today?
2. Dr. Pepper and Baja Blast. I'm about to drink some banana milk.
12. What is your favorite part of the day?
doesn't really matter, as I'm usually in the house all day and night long.
13. Your current To-do list?
check into Triple R about job training with a focus on mental health and other classes for people with severe mental illness at the request of my psychologist, find a place to volunteer at and get caught up so I can start looking for a job, get ahold of amber to find out what the hell is going on with her, make plans for my dad's on sunday I think, since nobody else will call him like he asked.
14. Where is your best friend right now?
Hopefully, she's sleeping.
15. What color is your toothbrush?
Silver?
16. What is out your back door?
The backyard, what else?
17. Any plans for Friday night?
Nope.
18. Least favorite place to shop?
kmart.
19. Last thing you bought?
this gau (prayer box): http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=6244270464&ssPageName=MERCOSI_VI_ROSI_PR4_PCN_BIX_Stores
20. Last gift you received?
Um... the Sudoku book Brandon bought me?
21. Funniest thing you heard all day?
I'm not in a very comical mood today.
22. Favorite mug?
a black octagonal dollar store find. I want one that is blue with the ohm symbol in gold.
23. What color is your front door?
wood color.
NOW
-Is your hair up?: yes.
-Is your phone right beside you?: nope.
-Do you miss someone?: lots right now.
-Do you wish you were somewhere else?: just about anywhere else, yeah.
-Do you have plans for tonight?: sleep?
-Are you wearing makeup?: nope.
-Are you wearing chapstick?: nope.
-Are you cold?: hot and dry.
-Are you tired?: mmmhmmm.
-Are you excited?: nope.
-Are you watching TV?: Brandon has it on, even though he's reading, so I have to listen to it.
-Are you wearing pajamas?: nope.
-Who's the last person you IMed?: roswell.
-Who's the last person that called you?: my dad.
PAST
-Done anything you regret?: I have started to regret things in recent years. It's still new to me.
-Ever lied?: an unfortunate symptom of my disorder, since I value honesty so much.
-Ever stuck gum under a desk?: nope. that's disgusting.
-Ever spit at someone?: not on purpose. hehe
-Ever kick something living?: I DO have cats...
-Ever trip over your own feet?: more often than the cats. ;)
-Ever had your nails done?: yeah, for my best friend's wedding.
-Ever thrown up because you cried so hard?: many a time.
LAST WEEK
-Had any plans last week?: I went to Koli's to see him off to NOLA.
-Who did you see most last week?: Other than my family and Brandon, Koli, Adrian, 2.o, and April.
-Have you yelled at someone?: most likely.
-Have you gotten mad at someone?: I'm always mad.
-Have you cried?: yes.
-Have you IMed more than 3 people?: yes, including my sisters who live in the same house. hehe
-Have you gotten laid?: yeah man, I totally scored!
-Have you eaten anything gross?: yeah, burger king. damn foster's toys.
Spill Your Guts
1. First thing you did this morning?: checked for any updates from amber and went back to bed.
2. Last thing you ate?: nachos bel grande. I'm about to eat a salty nut bar (haw haw haw), a meat stick (haw haw haw), a white cheddar stick, and a white chocolate take 5.
3. Is your cell phone a piece of crap?: it is below the current bottom of the line, so yeah, I'd say so.
4. What's something you look forward to most in the next 6 weeks?: I dunno. I graduate from DBT Class in about that long.
5. What's annoying you right now?: depression and anxiety.
6. Do you believe in long-distance relationships?: yes, but most people can't seem to handle them.
Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now?
A: yes.
Q: Where is the last place you went?
A: QT.
Q: Who is the last person you called?
A: Amber's voicemail.
Q: Do you look like your mom or dad?
A: I have my mom's build and my dad's everything else.
Q: Do you have any siblings?
A: Two sisters.
Q: Do you smile often?
A: not really. we're "learning" how to smile in class right now and it feels really really weird, so I'm guessing I don't "really" smile hardly ever.
Q: Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
A: roswell is. I'm talking to him.
Q: Choose one (only one!) to have: love, beauty, or creativity.
A: love.
Q: Do you wish on stars?
A: sometimes.
Q: Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?
A: No, I can't stand that for some reason...
Q: What is the most disgusting food you've ever eaten?
A: a can of expired salmon from a food box when I was starving that made me severely physically ill.
Q: Would you kill someone?
A: mmmhmmm.
Q: When did you last cry?
A: about an hour ago.
Q: Do you like your handwriting?
A: yes.
Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: I guess not really...
Q: Are you keeping a secret from the world?
A: I guess so.
Q: Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
A: Mine.
Q: What is the color of your bedsheets?
A: black, black, black, black number one...
Q: What were you doing at 9 last night?
A: I don't recall.
Q: I can't wait til...
A: I'm fully functional and anatomically correct...
Q: Is Tom on your friends list?
A: yes.
Q: Look to your left. What's there?
A: my bed.
Q: Do you own a picture phone?
A: you mean a camera phone? unfortunately not, seeing as I'm actually a photographer and would use one.
Q: Ever cried yourself to sleep?
A: again, many times. not something I'm really proud of...
Q: Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?
A: unfortunately. I try not to.
Q: Song that makes you cry?
A: I think you're a little obsessed with me crying and that's kind of creepy...
Q: Are you a normally happy person?
A: normally, but the situation is never normal anymore.
Q: Has anyone besides your friends and family ever said "I love you" to you?
A: someone I didn't consider a friend in one aspect or another? ...I doubt it.
Q: Is your self-esteem extremely low?
A: yessir. when I am employed it will be worlds better, though.
Q: What color are your eyes?
A: brown.
Q: Long or Short Hair?
A: my hair has grown ridiculously fast and is down to about the bottom of my shoulderblades already. I'm probably gonna cut it all off soon.
Q: Current Music?
A: none.
.:. favorite soda: cherry coke, atm.
.:. favorite fast food: asian salad from mcdonald's.
.:. favorite animal: black panthers.
.:. favorite burger: that cheesy bacon one from burger king is really good.
.:. favorite fruit: strawberry.
do you:
.:. have a crush on someone: no.
.:. wish you could live somewhere else: yes.
.:. think others find you attractive: not strangers.
.:. want more piercings: yes.
.:. want a tattoo: yes. quite a few, actually.
.:. like cleaning: uh, no...
.:. last talked to: roswell on aim.
.:. last thought: "crap, I hope I didn't mess up his collage..."
.:. last showered: several days ago.
For or Against:
.:. long distant relationship: for, i guess...
.:. killing people: depends on the situation.
.:. teenage smoking: I did it, so I can't say against, but you really shouldn't...
.:. gay relationships: totally for. especially if I can watch. oh my, did I say that out loud?
Have you:
.:. ever cried over a girl or boy: who hasn't??
.:. ever been arrested: nope.
.:. ever had a friend die: my grandma was a very good friend...
.:. ever used a gun: yes.
.:. finished a puzzle: many.
.:. ever got surgery: yes.
.:. ever got beat up: yes.
.:. ever hated someone: yes, until I develop some compassion.
.:. ever made a huge mistake: yes, i guess.
.:. ever jogged a mile: had to in order to pass gym...
.:. ever played w/ someone's feelings: not on purpose...
Number:
.:. favorite number: 9.
.:. of hearts I have broken?: you'd have to ask them...
.:. Of Boyfriends and/or girlfriends: 4, that I count officially. plus two guys who lasted less than a week and two girls who didn't really know what they wanted from me for a little while.
Person who last:
.:. slept in your bed: jeffie.
.:. saw you cry: brandon.
.:. made you cry: myself.
.:. yelled at you: probably brandon.
.:. made you smile: not sure.
.:. called you: my dad.
.:. IMed you: roswell.
.:. texted you: adrian.
**Pick One**
.:. blue or red?: blue.
.:. spring or fall?: autumn.
Random stuff:
.:. criminal record? never been caught.
.:. do you speak any other languages? not really.
.:. piercings and where? none.
.:. initials? MMB.
.:. how old do you look? I don't really know anymore...
.:. do you get embarrassed? yes, horribly.
.:. what upsets you? a hell of a lot.
.:. longest car ride? phoenix to monterey ca?
.:. longest plane ride? phoenix to... the one nearest san francisco, can't remember what city it was in...
HAVE YOU EVER...
Sleep in a bed with opposite sex who is not a sibling? yeah...
Hooked up in the woods? I don't hook up.
Stolen money from a friend?: no.
Had a crush on a teacher? yes.
Been on an airplane? once, round trip.
Missed someone so much it hurts? very much so. I'm emo like that.
Been to the ER? several times.
Been in a car accident? with someone else driving, yes, a few.
Cried yourself to sleep? yes.
Done something you told yourself you'd never do again? yes.
Sung in the shower? yes.
Hooked up with more than 2 people in 1 weekend? I don't hook up.
Laughed so hard you cried? yes.
Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend? yes, but I'm not proud of it.
Regretted hurting someone? uh, always...
Regretted loving someone? not anyone I've dated.
1. In one sentence, explain what ended your last relationship:
Last time I broke up with Brandon it was because he dislocated my thumb in his sleep and I thought he was conscious when he did it.
2. What made you smile today?
Not much.
3. What were you doing this morning at 8a.m.?
Trying to sleep through being continually attacked by a cat.
4. What were you doing 15 minutes ago?
Moping around at QT.
5. Something that happened to you in 1985?
I got mad at "the man" for the first time because I wasn't allowed into kindergarten because my birthday was in December.
6. Your prom night?
Never been to a prom. Never would want to attend one.
7. Last thing you said aloud?
"what?"
8. Last thing someone else said aloud?
Brandon talking about some tv commercial to get celebrities to text message your phone.
9. Worst thing currently on television:
Nearly everything.
10. What was in the mail today?
Nothing for me.
11. How many different beverages have you drank today?
2. Dr. Pepper and Baja Blast. I'm about to drink some banana milk.
12. What is your favorite part of the day?
doesn't really matter, as I'm usually in the house all day and night long.
13. Your current To-do list?
check into Triple R about job training with a focus on mental health and other classes for people with severe mental illness at the request of my psychologist, find a place to volunteer at and get caught up so I can start looking for a job, get ahold of amber to find out what the hell is going on with her, make plans for my dad's on sunday I think, since nobody else will call him like he asked.
14. Where is your best friend right now?
Hopefully, she's sleeping.
15. What color is your toothbrush?
Silver?
16. What is out your back door?
The backyard, what else?
17. Any plans for Friday night?
Nope.
18. Least favorite place to shop?
kmart.
19. Last thing you bought?
this gau (prayer box): http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=6244270464&ssPageName=MERCOSI_VI_ROSI_PR4_PCN_BIX_Stores
20. Last gift you received?
Um... the Sudoku book Brandon bought me?
21. Funniest thing you heard all day?
I'm not in a very comical mood today.
22. Favorite mug?
a black octagonal dollar store find. I want one that is blue with the ohm symbol in gold.
23. What color is your front door?
wood color.
NOW
-Is your hair up?: yes.
-Is your phone right beside you?: nope.
-Do you miss someone?: lots right now.
-Do you wish you were somewhere else?: just about anywhere else, yeah.
-Do you have plans for tonight?: sleep?
-Are you wearing makeup?: nope.
-Are you wearing chapstick?: nope.
-Are you cold?: hot and dry.
-Are you tired?: mmmhmmm.
-Are you excited?: nope.
-Are you watching TV?: Brandon has it on, even though he's reading, so I have to listen to it.
-Are you wearing pajamas?: nope.
-Who's the last person you IMed?: roswell.
-Who's the last person that called you?: my dad.
PAST
-Done anything you regret?: I have started to regret things in recent years. It's still new to me.
-Ever lied?: an unfortunate symptom of my disorder, since I value honesty so much.
-Ever stuck gum under a desk?: nope. that's disgusting.
-Ever spit at someone?: not on purpose. hehe
-Ever kick something living?: I DO have cats...
-Ever trip over your own feet?: more often than the cats. ;)
-Ever had your nails done?: yeah, for my best friend's wedding.
-Ever thrown up because you cried so hard?: many a time.
LAST WEEK
-Had any plans last week?: I went to Koli's to see him off to NOLA.
-Who did you see most last week?: Other than my family and Brandon, Koli, Adrian, 2.o, and April.
-Have you yelled at someone?: most likely.
-Have you gotten mad at someone?: I'm always mad.
-Have you cried?: yes.
-Have you IMed more than 3 people?: yes, including my sisters who live in the same house. hehe
-Have you gotten laid?: yeah man, I totally scored!
-Have you eaten anything gross?: yeah, burger king. damn foster's toys.
Spill Your Guts
1. First thing you did this morning?: checked for any updates from amber and went back to bed.
2. Last thing you ate?: nachos bel grande. I'm about to eat a salty nut bar (haw haw haw), a meat stick (haw haw haw), a white cheddar stick, and a white chocolate take 5.
3. Is your cell phone a piece of crap?: it is below the current bottom of the line, so yeah, I'd say so.
4. What's something you look forward to most in the next 6 weeks?: I dunno. I graduate from DBT Class in about that long.
5. What's annoying you right now?: depression and anxiety.
6. Do you believe in long-distance relationships?: yes, but most people can't seem to handle them.
Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now?
A: yes.
Q: Where is the last place you went?
A: QT.
Q: Who is the last person you called?
A: Amber's voicemail.
Q: Do you look like your mom or dad?
A: I have my mom's build and my dad's everything else.
Q: Do you have any siblings?
A: Two sisters.
Q: Do you smile often?
A: not really. we're "learning" how to smile in class right now and it feels really really weird, so I'm guessing I don't "really" smile hardly ever.
Q: Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
A: roswell is. I'm talking to him.
Q: Choose one (only one!) to have: love, beauty, or creativity.
A: love.
Q: Do you wish on stars?
A: sometimes.
Q: Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?
A: No, I can't stand that for some reason...
Q: What is the most disgusting food you've ever eaten?
A: a can of expired salmon from a food box when I was starving that made me severely physically ill.
Q: Would you kill someone?
A: mmmhmmm.
Q: When did you last cry?
A: about an hour ago.
Q: Do you like your handwriting?
A: yes.
Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: I guess not really...
Q: Are you keeping a secret from the world?
A: I guess so.
Q: Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
A: Mine.
Q: What is the color of your bedsheets?
A: black, black, black, black number one...
Q: What were you doing at 9 last night?
A: I don't recall.
Q: I can't wait til...
A: I'm fully functional and anatomically correct...
Q: Is Tom on your friends list?
A: yes.
Q: Look to your left. What's there?
A: my bed.
Q: Do you own a picture phone?
A: you mean a camera phone? unfortunately not, seeing as I'm actually a photographer and would use one.
Q: Ever cried yourself to sleep?
A: again, many times. not something I'm really proud of...
Q: Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?
A: unfortunately. I try not to.
Q: Song that makes you cry?
A: I think you're a little obsessed with me crying and that's kind of creepy...
Q: Are you a normally happy person?
A: normally, but the situation is never normal anymore.
Q: Has anyone besides your friends and family ever said "I love you" to you?
A: someone I didn't consider a friend in one aspect or another? ...I doubt it.
Q: Is your self-esteem extremely low?
A: yessir. when I am employed it will be worlds better, though.
Q: What color are your eyes?
A: brown.
Q: Long or Short Hair?
A: my hair has grown ridiculously fast and is down to about the bottom of my shoulderblades already. I'm probably gonna cut it all off soon.
Q: Current Music?
A: none.
.:. favorite soda: cherry coke, atm.
.:. favorite fast food: asian salad from mcdonald's.
.:. favorite animal: black panthers.
.:. favorite burger: that cheesy bacon one from burger king is really good.
.:. favorite fruit: strawberry.
do you:
.:. have a crush on someone: no.
.:. wish you could live somewhere else: yes.
.:. think others find you attractive: not strangers.
.:. want more piercings: yes.
.:. want a tattoo: yes. quite a few, actually.
.:. like cleaning: uh, no...
.:. last talked to: roswell on aim.
.:. last thought: "crap, I hope I didn't mess up his collage..."
.:. last showered: several days ago.
For or Against:
.:. long distant relationship: for, i guess...
.:. killing people: depends on the situation.
.:. teenage smoking: I did it, so I can't say against, but you really shouldn't...
.:. gay relationships: totally for. especially if I can watch. oh my, did I say that out loud?
Have you:
.:. ever cried over a girl or boy: who hasn't??
.:. ever been arrested: nope.
.:. ever had a friend die: my grandma was a very good friend...
.:. ever used a gun: yes.
.:. finished a puzzle: many.
.:. ever got surgery: yes.
.:. ever got beat up: yes.
.:. ever hated someone: yes, until I develop some compassion.
.:. ever made a huge mistake: yes, i guess.
.:. ever jogged a mile: had to in order to pass gym...
.:. ever played w/ someone's feelings: not on purpose...
Number:
.:. favorite number: 9.
.:. of hearts I have broken?: you'd have to ask them...
.:. Of Boyfriends and/or girlfriends: 4, that I count officially. plus two guys who lasted less than a week and two girls who didn't really know what they wanted from me for a little while.
Person who last:
.:. slept in your bed: jeffie.
.:. saw you cry: brandon.
.:. made you cry: myself.
.:. yelled at you: probably brandon.
.:. made you smile: not sure.
.:. called you: my dad.
.:. IMed you: roswell.
.:. texted you: adrian.
**Pick One**
.:. blue or red?: blue.
.:. spring or fall?: autumn.
Random stuff:
.:. criminal record? never been caught.
.:. do you speak any other languages? not really.
.:. piercings and where? none.
.:. initials? MMB.
.:. how old do you look? I don't really know anymore...
.:. do you get embarrassed? yes, horribly.
.:. what upsets you? a hell of a lot.
.:. longest car ride? phoenix to monterey ca?
.:. longest plane ride? phoenix to... the one nearest san francisco, can't remember what city it was in...
HAVE YOU EVER...
Sleep in a bed with opposite sex who is not a sibling? yeah...
Hooked up in the woods? I don't hook up.
Stolen money from a friend?: no.
Had a crush on a teacher? yes.
Been on an airplane? once, round trip.
Missed someone so much it hurts? very much so. I'm emo like that.
Been to the ER? several times.
Been in a car accident? with someone else driving, yes, a few.
Cried yourself to sleep? yes.
Done something you told yourself you'd never do again? yes.
Sung in the shower? yes.
Hooked up with more than 2 people in 1 weekend? I don't hook up.
Laughed so hard you cried? yes.
Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend? yes, but I'm not proud of it.
Regretted hurting someone? uh, always...
Regretted loving someone? not anyone I've dated.