Ranting about chair tests...yet again...
Okay. So, every year there are chair tests. And every year I practice my butt off for them. And, every year I can play through all the excerpts decently. This year, Gigi even complemented me on two of them. That never happens. But, every single bloody chair test, I come into the room and I play it in varying degrees worse than I could've. And, I can't understand why...I'm really not that nervous. I used to be, but after a bajillion tests I guess you just kind of get used to it. But, all the same whenever I take chair tests I'm always like five times more out of tune than usual, my tone is scratchier, and I keep stopping. I never seem to get into the music and just play even when I know the piece really well. Like today, I took my chair test and I stopped like a gajillion times, Benes even commented on that...he never does, and I've always had a tendency to stop and fix myself. aarg. It's just really disappointing to play horribly with the knowledge that you could've done soo much better. It makes me feel like all that practice was useless. And, on top of that, I have another chair test for MYS this Saturday. Here goes nothing.