sad
i am getting used to being sad all the time now and really bothers me. I am being nervous and sometimes very rude lately, but I don't want to hurt anyone, I definitely don't have that intention.
I realize now how hard it is when you make friends from different companies, like from school and from other schools. They all have different interests and they seem to get along well, but then it feels like there is always something that keeps all of us from having great time.
I am very concerned about my friends, I want everybody to have a good time and I want to help anybody who needs me. But somehow I always seem to fail in this area. And makes me sad...
Yesterday night was weird. I really saw all of us having a good time at first, but then, all of a sudden, people separated - some were in the kitchen, some were in the living room. I tried to get everybody together but it didn't seem to work...
Then Lizzy didn't feel good, I got very upset, I thought that it was something more than just not feeling good. I tried to ask her...
Then she was on the phone, I videotaped her and everybody else.
When she was leaving I felt very bad, I wanted her to have a good time, but I am not sure if she did. I was very concerned about that, I fell asleep with this thought on my mind and woke up with the same thought.
I called her, but it didn't seem to me that she was as excited about today than all the other days.
I AM FRUSTRATED!!! KILL ME!!!
i hate caring so much about everybody else. everyone's feelings have always been more important to me than the ones of my own. i feel really hurt when somebody is mad at me. i wanna fall asleep, wake up and be a different person.
I realize now how hard it is when you make friends from different companies, like from school and from other schools. They all have different interests and they seem to get along well, but then it feels like there is always something that keeps all of us from having great time.
I am very concerned about my friends, I want everybody to have a good time and I want to help anybody who needs me. But somehow I always seem to fail in this area. And makes me sad...
Yesterday night was weird. I really saw all of us having a good time at first, but then, all of a sudden, people separated - some were in the kitchen, some were in the living room. I tried to get everybody together but it didn't seem to work...
Then Lizzy didn't feel good, I got very upset, I thought that it was something more than just not feeling good. I tried to ask her...
Then she was on the phone, I videotaped her and everybody else.
When she was leaving I felt very bad, I wanted her to have a good time, but I am not sure if she did. I was very concerned about that, I fell asleep with this thought on my mind and woke up with the same thought.
I called her, but it didn't seem to me that she was as excited about today than all the other days.
I AM FRUSTRATED!!! KILL ME!!!
i hate caring so much about everybody else. everyone's feelings have always been more important to me than the ones of my own. i feel really hurt when somebody is mad at me. i wanna fall asleep, wake up and be a different person.