alive
so i haven't posted here in a long while, but I may just start again. I have been writing over at xanga for a while, but i've found that i have started editing what i say over there because i feel like if i get too open then i'll offend some people that come read my stuff. I started blogging a while back to help me release things inside and i've found over the last year or more that i stopped doing that and just write things down. when i try to be honest with myself i end up erasing that blog and not posting anything or just posting some generic posting. there have been some changes in the last few years, but some things seem to be just the same. i'll get into more detail later but i kind of want to just start opening up the floodgates as they come and see how it makes me feel. today i'm a little depressed over my anniversary last night. the realization that i've messed up and the realization that this is probably the best it'll ever be. i gotta run for now.
peace.
peace.