in need to vent

[ruquia]

Do you know what really pisses me off...like really gets under my skin? When people are unwilling to do what they want others to do in the world. Every time I walk by Pendelton or more specifically a former political science professor of mine its always highly awkward because of Community. Like today, there was like this hatred a year after community thing happened. From a political science professor! Well no shit the world hasn't become much better if people like her are hoping to change it. It almost makes me not sorry that I posted that insulting message last year. There seems to be no need to be sorry if people cannot understand that it implies moving on. Most people during the time would not dare talk back to the chair of the English department, and okay...except for me. I'm like the weird one who actually said something and now has to deal with all of this petty nonsense a year afterwards. If I could go back in time I would have never apologized to anyone. I was not wrong; why was the Chair of the English department even discussing a colleagues' tenure on a conference where there are no social rules? It looks really bad upon this guy and the other professors who sought to defend tenure. It's like, shut up, we all know that you work hard for tenure...it doesn't mean that it can't ever be achieved or no one is worthy, it just means that there is room for improvement when a person doesn't receive it. Just like there is room for improvement when a student is failing a course. OR in all the other things in life that you are not sprouting out of the womb being perfect at. Even just bringing tenure up on this conference is implying that tenure is just a joke. Like people post about Jesus being gay on this conference. People even got to the point where they were arguing about which was worst: the holocaust or slavery? I'm not sorry that I was sarcastic and bitter in my post. I understand that tenure affects a professors' life and family life, this is what happens, yes dear, in the real world where people have to actually work hard in order to achieve their career goals.
I don't think people got anywhere in history by just obeying authority and not daring to say anything when something was seriously wrong. Sure, I would have been an asshole a little bit more graciously, but I don't regret replying and sticking up for my friend. Especially since people are still holding this against me. I just have respect for very few people on this campus and they are the people who I can see actually doing something to improve the past. Like questioning what makes it okay for a professor to completely insult a student on a forum but not the other way around?