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[runrgrl86]

I don't do well with confrontation. I immediately felt horrible when she came in. My pulse was through the roof; I was shaking and felt sick to my stomach. She was angry, as expected, and after slamming her door, she shut herself out for a while. Reemerging 20 minutes later, she threw a pot with stuck on macaroni at me (thankfully it hit my chair.) I kind of laughed out of shock, not intending to be antagonistic, but this made her even more upset. I tried to explain my reasoning calmly and she wouldn't let me finish my sentences. I have to say that I love my ability to not react when prompted by insults and clear baiting. Everything she did was fishing for a fight. She was literally inches from my face. I waited for her to finish her rants then continued my sentence calmly and rationally. It takes a lot to make me angry to where I blow up. I babysit way too much to have a quick temperament and am used to kids yelling at me when I have to make them do something they don’t want to do.

It basically went unresolved. I’m locking my door from now on. I regret this had to happen. I’ve tried everything else though. :(