Till the clouds go rain on some other sucker's parade...
So I had a crazy week... Tuesday I decided to start the process, so I went down to the DMV and got my motocycle permit. It took a 30 min bus ride, a mile and 1/2 of walking, 2 and 1/2 hours of waiting at the DMV, and passing two written tests. Easy, huh? So I decided to celebrate by treating myself to a movie. So I walked a mile or so to the theatre and saw Ice Age 3 (in 3D!!! =D) Probably not worth the $11, but still a good movie. After the movie I wasn't entirely sure how to get back to a bus that'd take me home, so I just walked the 4 miles home =P
The rest of the week wasn't too crazy. Just the usual classes, clients and supervision. Friday our air conditioner finally died... It's been 95+ every day for the past... 2-3 weeks? So we went and got a new one. Since the land lady is paying we got the biggest one we could find. Of course it didn't fit. In fact my poor roomie had to carve the old unit out, because they had put foam insullation around it. Then we had to smack the 2 by 4 it was resting on down about 2 cm to make the new unit fit. Was crazy. Works wonders now though. Also went out to eat dinner and came back and watched a movie with George (my per-intern supervisor) again. We've been making a weekly habit of it. It's been fun, and a nice alternative to friday night's alone.
My mom was in LA again this week, so I had to at least pretend I wanted to spend time with her. It wasn't bad though. We went around to a couple motorcycle/scooter shops. I saw all the scoots I've been looking at online up close and personal... (I want an Aprilia MP3!!!) Looks like I thought, for now 150cc is the best I'm gonna fine for $2000. Shame really, but probably a good starter scooter. Anywho, we got some hiking boots, a riding jacket, and a full-face helmet. I'm actually kinda excited about the motorcycle classes I'm taking next weekend. The jacket and the helmet look kinda slick. We also got me more dress shirts and a couple new belts. I'll need them if I end up accepting the position at the Children's Hospital. We also went for a walk on Venice Beach. (Where it is conveniently 20 degrees cooler than here). All in all not a bad day.
Today I went about my normal business; playing video games and watching stuff on Hulu. Of course, my weekend couldn't end perfectly, right? (Why would I be updating otherwise =P) Anna (I know you all know where this is going already.. =P) came online and I was a little excited. I hadn't heard from her since we missed eachother's phonecalls on tuesday (she called while I was in the movies). She had been looking at apartments up at Davis, and she had mentioned she wasn't going home that night, so I was curious what she had been up to. Turns out she drove to Davis boy's (apparently he does have a name, Dustin) house and they went on a 4 day backpacking trip together. Anywho after bit more talking she said that they are dating now.
Not a suprise really, though she has said nothing about him since she went home at the end of the quarter. It's also good to know that my intuition is spot on. That I could read the signs of her being distant. It also means that I correctly interpretted the feeling I had as I walked away in Encino a month and 1/2 ago. Needless to say it hit me hard. I'm handling it well enough... I suppose thanks to so much practice... =P I tried to respond to it very positively to Anna. I told her I was glad she had fun, and it's good that she found someone she likes. I'm sure she's aware of how I'm taking it, and I don't need to bother her with feelings under her control. I told her she could date others... I told her she could sleep with others... I can't fault her for doing just that (well, at very least the first part). Given how lonely I've felt lately, I don't fault her for taking a chance with someone else who made her happy. I probably wouldn't have let it stop me if I had met someone here.
Still... sigh. It'll be a week or two before I can get those images out of my head. Anna and someone else, hiking in the wilderness for 4 days... alone. Ugh. I'm hoping the sleeping pills (well, melts... it's over the counter crap) will help a bit. I can kind of feel them working, but I have a feeling my mind is going to come at me seriously once I lie down and let my defenses down.
I'll see how things go. I'm deffinately going to be down the next week or two... if it gets bad I might look at starting therapy sooner rather than later. We'll see if I can find the time for it in my schedule. Anti-depressants are deffinately out of the question... I feel uncomfortable enough thinking about the fact that in two weeks I could control a motorcycle. I don't need any more temptation than that...
k, meds are kicking in enough I hope. I'm gonna try and get some sleep. Class and client tomorrow. Also need to schedule an appointment... Gnight all! Hope your weekend went better =)
The rest of the week wasn't too crazy. Just the usual classes, clients and supervision. Friday our air conditioner finally died... It's been 95+ every day for the past... 2-3 weeks? So we went and got a new one. Since the land lady is paying we got the biggest one we could find. Of course it didn't fit. In fact my poor roomie had to carve the old unit out, because they had put foam insullation around it. Then we had to smack the 2 by 4 it was resting on down about 2 cm to make the new unit fit. Was crazy. Works wonders now though. Also went out to eat dinner and came back and watched a movie with George (my per-intern supervisor) again. We've been making a weekly habit of it. It's been fun, and a nice alternative to friday night's alone.
My mom was in LA again this week, so I had to at least pretend I wanted to spend time with her. It wasn't bad though. We went around to a couple motorcycle/scooter shops. I saw all the scoots I've been looking at online up close and personal... (I want an Aprilia MP3!!!) Looks like I thought, for now 150cc is the best I'm gonna fine for $2000. Shame really, but probably a good starter scooter. Anywho, we got some hiking boots, a riding jacket, and a full-face helmet. I'm actually kinda excited about the motorcycle classes I'm taking next weekend. The jacket and the helmet look kinda slick. We also got me more dress shirts and a couple new belts. I'll need them if I end up accepting the position at the Children's Hospital. We also went for a walk on Venice Beach. (Where it is conveniently 20 degrees cooler than here). All in all not a bad day.
Today I went about my normal business; playing video games and watching stuff on Hulu. Of course, my weekend couldn't end perfectly, right? (Why would I be updating otherwise =P) Anna (I know you all know where this is going already.. =P) came online and I was a little excited. I hadn't heard from her since we missed eachother's phonecalls on tuesday (she called while I was in the movies). She had been looking at apartments up at Davis, and she had mentioned she wasn't going home that night, so I was curious what she had been up to. Turns out she drove to Davis boy's (apparently he does have a name, Dustin) house and they went on a 4 day backpacking trip together. Anywho after bit more talking she said that they are dating now.
Not a suprise really, though she has said nothing about him since she went home at the end of the quarter. It's also good to know that my intuition is spot on. That I could read the signs of her being distant. It also means that I correctly interpretted the feeling I had as I walked away in Encino a month and 1/2 ago. Needless to say it hit me hard. I'm handling it well enough... I suppose thanks to so much practice... =P I tried to respond to it very positively to Anna. I told her I was glad she had fun, and it's good that she found someone she likes. I'm sure she's aware of how I'm taking it, and I don't need to bother her with feelings under her control. I told her she could date others... I told her she could sleep with others... I can't fault her for doing just that (well, at very least the first part). Given how lonely I've felt lately, I don't fault her for taking a chance with someone else who made her happy. I probably wouldn't have let it stop me if I had met someone here.
Still... sigh. It'll be a week or two before I can get those images out of my head. Anna and someone else, hiking in the wilderness for 4 days... alone. Ugh. I'm hoping the sleeping pills (well, melts... it's over the counter crap) will help a bit. I can kind of feel them working, but I have a feeling my mind is going to come at me seriously once I lie down and let my defenses down.
I'll see how things go. I'm deffinately going to be down the next week or two... if it gets bad I might look at starting therapy sooner rather than later. We'll see if I can find the time for it in my schedule. Anti-depressants are deffinately out of the question... I feel uncomfortable enough thinking about the fact that in two weeks I could control a motorcycle. I don't need any more temptation than that...
k, meds are kicking in enough I hope. I'm gonna try and get some sleep. Class and client tomorrow. Also need to schedule an appointment... Gnight all! Hope your weekend went better =)