i want a phone too
So i am less than enthused about being without a phone. It has been far to long, something like 16months since i left oz and have been phoneless. In the beginning it was okay. I was in the middle of no where and while i wanted to talk to my friends back home it's a bit expensive calling internationally on a cell. Even when I made the move to a more bustling place I was engaging in very little 'talk time'.
Now however, it's a different story. Since returning to maui i have been increasingly frustrated with the phone situation in my life and how the phone service here actually sucks in comparison to oz. take for example it took america how long to make the switch from analog to digital and not everybody has digital now... or the fact the the pay as you go plans charge an arm and a leg to both make/receive calls or texts? yes they have 2 year contracts but having a current lack of funding in combination with my credit score and the fact i may be traveling sometime next year it's seems make that option sound a bit well less than best.
i'm writing this because i'm frustrated this morning. I hate, really hate asking my fiance to 'borrow' his phone. even to make calls regarding our housing or our wedding. I rarely ask to use to phone even to call family. so when i asked to use it today (in my head it was for a few hours) i failed to take into consideration he might actually say no. so when he did i was a bit taken a back. not all of me, for my mind understands that there are current extenuating and external circumstances which need to be processed out from his end and having a phone will make that easier. it's still doesn't help that part of me which thinks it unfair, sucks, and is frustrated by the fact that i don't have a phone.
and from there, it snowballs. i lacked a phone when we were looking for a house, a job, a car and now with this wedding. It feels as though i am less than productive and efficient because i can only do some much researching and resourcing before making a real contact. and yes, having the internet has helped but only slightly. the details and questions you need a real live person to answer still are difficult. it has become tiring going to my fiances work to have access to a phone i can use to get the information we need. and it's hard to just get things done when we're both expressing things we've found out...
then i'm upset and feel guilty because he's left with all the leg work of getting a hold of them and hopefully expressing what it is i wanted to express in a way which will get the answers and details i need but am relying on him to gather and then relay back to me through his filters.
it's funny how so many great things can be totally annihilated when something as trivial as this appears on your horizon. in the last few days we have made serious headway with our wedding, another post completely. and while it does suck being without a personal phone, i'm happy i have what i have, even though i may want more.
Now however, it's a different story. Since returning to maui i have been increasingly frustrated with the phone situation in my life and how the phone service here actually sucks in comparison to oz. take for example it took america how long to make the switch from analog to digital and not everybody has digital now... or the fact the the pay as you go plans charge an arm and a leg to both make/receive calls or texts? yes they have 2 year contracts but having a current lack of funding in combination with my credit score and the fact i may be traveling sometime next year it's seems make that option sound a bit well less than best.
i'm writing this because i'm frustrated this morning. I hate, really hate asking my fiance to 'borrow' his phone. even to make calls regarding our housing or our wedding. I rarely ask to use to phone even to call family. so when i asked to use it today (in my head it was for a few hours) i failed to take into consideration he might actually say no. so when he did i was a bit taken a back. not all of me, for my mind understands that there are current extenuating and external circumstances which need to be processed out from his end and having a phone will make that easier. it's still doesn't help that part of me which thinks it unfair, sucks, and is frustrated by the fact that i don't have a phone.
and from there, it snowballs. i lacked a phone when we were looking for a house, a job, a car and now with this wedding. It feels as though i am less than productive and efficient because i can only do some much researching and resourcing before making a real contact. and yes, having the internet has helped but only slightly. the details and questions you need a real live person to answer still are difficult. it has become tiring going to my fiances work to have access to a phone i can use to get the information we need. and it's hard to just get things done when we're both expressing things we've found out...
then i'm upset and feel guilty because he's left with all the leg work of getting a hold of them and hopefully expressing what it is i wanted to express in a way which will get the answers and details i need but am relying on him to gather and then relay back to me through his filters.
it's funny how so many great things can be totally annihilated when something as trivial as this appears on your horizon. in the last few days we have made serious headway with our wedding, another post completely. and while it does suck being without a personal phone, i'm happy i have what i have, even though i may want more.