coming back after being gone
things here, across the board, have required much more energy than anticipated . in our current living situation the weather has the ability to opress with how permeable into your life it seeps, slowly growing damp and moldy and relentless. no pun intended. however, our experiences of late have been less like those so many have come to take for granted: dryness and warmth, electric and running water, and a number of other 'amenities' one misses at times of unattachedness.
like, being able to take a shower and then going back to bed-make that taking a shower free from the need to wear shoes, or being able to take a poo down the hall instead of in a bucket or in town or in a bag (done all 3), how about that rain that's oh so lovely as it hits your roof but when your tent floods even from the ceiling it can be a bit tedious. then there's the wild animal issue. stray dogs and cats maybe even some racoons can be pains but when it comes to bears - come on now people! we've got a bear who likes our car and the ground squirrel next to the car, both of which are right in the path we must take to take to both enter/exit from wiltopia. next, you guessed it, the lack of truly edible food. i admit i'm a food snob and i wil forever hold my tongue to speak of the prices of produce in lahaina. yes, they are crazy but at least they have them! at least i can drive to mana and get organic/natural products...better yet- have friends who grow food - grow food!
now i've said it before but i am very thankful that we came to seward. it has showed us many things about eachother and ourselves.. the us needed this time to figure a few things out and this was the best place to get done in as short amount of time possible. before we left maui i initially had large reservations and looking back i will acknowlege all of them came to pass. however, one can argue whether mearly thinking about the potential gave energy into it being, or if i was simply picking up the surrounding energies of the town/ people and applied what i knew about myself and degree of flexibilty. i have surprised myself in the extents to which i have reached within and without, while seeing areas that clearly need revamping. i find myself himhawing around subjects that once and for all need to be parched of their nutrients and put into the compost bin.
some say this is a 'freeing up' period where many, on a variety of rungs, will go through a process of letting the energetic attachements, patterns and paradigms go and move into a higher vibrating reality here in this phyical realm, some that last - at least for awhile. i can see and feel where my soul is directing itself to go but i know that i must wait until i am in another place before these newest pieces to come into view. I am beging, again.