world on fire
And I'm on LJ again. This is getting to be more and more rare. I've said it before, but the only reason I don't give this thing up is because I actually like looking back on what's been and gone, some months, even years later.
I've been getting a better read on myself in the past little while that I ever have before. I've never been short of self-conscious musing, but I feel like it's getting me somewhere now. It sounds ridiculous, but I joked earlier that I relate to Dr. House because I see myself that way when I'm angry and ... well I've been feeling closer to that for a time now. But there's a big contrast. More than ever, I have a total lack of compassion for some, and an abundance for others. It's ... making me dizzy. I don't have to be angry anymore to really be letting some things slip out on the blunt side. I guess it isn't bad. I can't say it's good either. How can I really say what's me? I guess this is.
Matt chose a great song that's at least a temp track for use on 'Once' - it's called 'Rewrite' by Sia. Give it a listen if you have the chance, it's pretty and moving. Also - the song 'Breathe Me' is worth a listen.
I believe there is a distance I have wandered
to touch upon the years of reaching out and reaching in
holding out, holding in
I've been getting a better read on myself in the past little while that I ever have before. I've never been short of self-conscious musing, but I feel like it's getting me somewhere now. It sounds ridiculous, but I joked earlier that I relate to Dr. House because I see myself that way when I'm angry and ... well I've been feeling closer to that for a time now. But there's a big contrast. More than ever, I have a total lack of compassion for some, and an abundance for others. It's ... making me dizzy. I don't have to be angry anymore to really be letting some things slip out on the blunt side. I guess it isn't bad. I can't say it's good either. How can I really say what's me? I guess this is.
Matt chose a great song that's at least a temp track for use on 'Once' - it's called 'Rewrite' by Sia. Give it a listen if you have the chance, it's pretty and moving. Also - the song 'Breathe Me' is worth a listen.
I believe there is a distance I have wandered
to touch upon the years of reaching out and reaching in
holding out, holding in