life or something like it
So I'm still working in the residential home. We're going through some budgeting issues so I'm no longer doing a million hours a week. I'm pretty much sticking to 40 which has been nice. I'm going to need at least a second job...but I'm starting to think I just need a NEW job. Part of me feels like I could never leave, but I know that's not true. I left that way about Brookview but I did it. It was hard and I still miss my kids from there like crazy but I'll be ok. No matter how much I love my kids eventually they can't be enough to keep me there. My little boy Jahlil told me I better stay at Esperanza until he leaves and I wanted to cry. I love him a lot, but....how wrong is it that he's not enough? I feel myself cracking...I'm stressed and burnt out and I don't know how much worse I'll get if I stay. I also worry if I don't "grow up" now and start to work in a job that uses my degree I never will.
Living in Stoneham by myself is nice...very quiet. I'm just not sure where or what I want to be doing right now.
I saw someone very special today that I hadn't seen a while. One of my co-workers had broken her leg recently (two months ago) and I talked her into coming to staff meeting today. She and I took Jahlil out to a late lunch. It was great and I just can't stop smiling now. Nicole is just such the heart of the program.
Living in Stoneham by myself is nice...very quiet. I'm just not sure where or what I want to be doing right now.
I saw someone very special today that I hadn't seen a while. One of my co-workers had broken her leg recently (two months ago) and I talked her into coming to staff meeting today. She and I took Jahlil out to a late lunch. It was great and I just can't stop smiling now. Nicole is just such the heart of the program.