We won't belong...

[runbunnyrun]

I've been feeling...melancholy today. I'm not exactly sure why. I think it might have something to do with how uneventful my life has been as of lately. Or maybe it's because I've found myself reminiscing of the past so much? My life consists of studying, eating, working, and sleeping. If people could waste away their lives, I would imagine

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[runbunnyrun]

Kind of right. During the Winter season he acts like a different person. He has seasonal depression. It was like this in 2006 and 2007. He just gets really depressed and he can't even figure out why. Then it causes him to recluse himself and then even start to ignore me. He spends the Winter in video games and being stressed over classes that don't matter. So I'm missing who he is 3/4ths of the year. Spring is approaching fast and once he graduates in May, things will be a lot nicer.

I don't understand people with seasonal depression.
Since I'm always depressed and I will probably never get over it, I guess I don't understand how a person can just snap out of it 3/4ths of the year and then just fall into it during the Winter. I mean, I know it's a lack of Vitamin D...I know that. I tell him to take his vitamins, but he doesn't listen to me. Maybe he should get out and walk in the cold for 30 minutes a day just to make sure his skin absorbs enough sun.

I don't think I'm settling. I'm pretty happy for the most part. And we enjoy each other's company. It's just a bad time of year....

I'm hoping next year this one happen. Since I've known him, the worst part of the winter was always the classes. Since he'll graduate in May, he won't have that to complain about this winter. I'm sure he'll find something else though. Maybe a bad job or wishing he did something more with his life? Who knows. I'm worried about now.

He said he didn't really mean to say to put off the wedding. He was just worried about affording it (none of our parents have money). He needs to understand that I don't want to fall into debt by blowing a lot of money on the wedding. If we can't afford it now, then I don't want to save up for it. I mean, yeah, weddings should be special and important but there are more important things I rather spend my money on. Such as saving up for a house or making our living situation better.

Oh man, food at the reception will be so expensive. That'll be the worst part. If there are like 100 people, that would be like 2k at most caterers. Maybe I can get a restaurant to cater..how white trash is that?