an awakening.
i've given it a lot of thought, and i'm really going to need my livejournal through this upcoming year.
honestly, i was using it regularly & got to the point where...i started finding excuses to not let my feelings out and for some reason, it was as though i believed that writing didn't "help" anymore. welp, i was pretty wrong.
i found myself in another depressive rut. failed a class. loathing wedding planning. making excuses not to do...much of anything. and up until the last couple of weeks, i hadn't admitted it to anyone, but christmas eve, it all happened. it's like.. something happens this time of year. i don't know. i can't describe it. my family is nuts to begin with, so maybe that's part of it.
nevertheless, i am here. alive and well. and i shouldn't complain at the moment because a lot WONDERFUL things have happened, aside from the dark things that have managed to make it to the forefront of conversation. i'm officially getting married august 1st, 2008. i purchased the dress. :)
here's the details:
http://www.anjolique.com style #912
i can post this only because rick has... little to no idea this even exists. so for anyone interested, that's the one. :)
if/when i get a moment, i'll post some pics of me (hysterically laughing) during the photos taken during "dress try-on time" w/my mother & best friend/matron of honor, wendy & her son, brady (3 mos old). so nevertheless, it's time for me to ring in the new year by resolving to write more in this journal to get some angst out...and some of the happy stuff too. i promise. :o)
happy new year everyone. <3
~ L*