rahhh my day
well. i have another half day of school tomorrow and i'm done. my honors english final was simple, although, i'm sure my talent for messing up even the simplest of assignments hasn't escaped me quite yet. interior design was super stupid- as expected. i finished in like... 15 minutes? yea, it was open book, but i didn't bother. i hate the class with such passion... she definitely wrote me a note saying i wasn't allowed to wear headphones after i'd been listening to a cd for like 45 minutes. whatever. i never have to go back there. she was evil. i hope she retires soon. i'm feeling a bit sentimental right now. i wrote my goodbyes last nite. i doubt everyone will get a chance to read theirs but it's the thought that counts, right? i saw nate today, he looked kinda frazzled. i felt like forcing him to go to prom with me isn't what he deserves. i decided that asking someone to prom and making them go with me- a girl they won't see for the next 4 months- is not in the least, fair. but nate somehow knows i wanted to talk to him, becuase he made me promise to meet him after 6th hour at his locker. (since neither of us have 8th hour finals we will have time to talk.) but what to say. "umm i was guna ask you to prom but then i decided not to because that's not fair to you."? mmm probably not. i'll think of something, i always do. i have so much going through my head right now. i have things i want to get done/need to finish but haven't had the chance. my horoscope yesterday was really creepy- it was like "you'll find yourself tying up loose ends and moving on. say goodbye to your past and prepare for your future, but before you go, make sure to resolve everything you've been thinking about." crazy weird. my heart is full, and verging on spilling over. i feel very girly in the sense that i can feel the emotion running through my body but i don't want to express it. does that make sense? at all? yea, i didn't think so either. rahhh. i miss my friends from PA, i miss my friends from here even tho i'm not gone yet. i won't miss the mean, stuck up, rude people though. not in the least. not at all. goodbyes are never easy... some people are making it easy by being the @ssholes they've been this whole time, others are making it difficult because they're awesome. right now i feel frozen, kinda like an outsider... i don't feel like i'm part of this at all, and i'm only watching it happen.. but then my heart breaks