I'm def. not trying to play the victim, I'm trying to let everyone know how I feel through this journal...I just thought maybe for one second everyone could stop trying to tell matt to get rid of me when you guys don't even know me...Also,maybe you should read previous comments made by people...ones like "dump that bitch"...wow if thats not suppose to be about me I don't know what is. And guess what...nobody ever said i wasnt supportive of matt having a solid group of friends to fall back on....thats why im cool when he goes out with everyone. I don't know many girlfriends that would let their boyfriends go out with a group of girls, or go out to a movie with one girl alone. Yeaaa, it's not that i dont trust matt, but that night that i let him go to the movie with that girl she tried to get on him. Even though matt shot her down, it didnt exactly make me feel that awesome. I love that matt has friends that care for him and want to help him through tough times, but just because you guys are there, dosent mean i have to be your friends. I never shot anyone down, I always tried to talk and be nice. It's just that nobody tried to talk to me. By being social,is the way you tend to get to know one another and meet on a common ground to become friends. We are missing one of those concepts in becoming friends, the being social part. If i talk to you and you don't say anything back to me besides two words, things might not work out. My friends never for once made matt feel like an outsider, and always wanted to include him in things. They call him, want to hang out with him. I'm sure you guys all are killing to call me. None of my friends totally opened up to him immediately, we are all different kinds of people...matt is not the norm for my circle of friends...but they looked past that and saw the person that he was. It seems that as soon as matts friends see me, they think stuck up, selfish...im not sure, but i dont think a selfish girl volunteers at a soup kitchen. the first time i met matts friends one of the first things his one friend said to him was "where did u find that cupcake." A cupcake? Kinda shoots down all hope of every being friends with you all. Like I said thats fine. It's just that I love matt and i want him to be happy...by us getting along he will be happy, thing is...I don't think that's ever going to be possible.
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