I don't know why it upsets me so much...

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 ...but I have an audition tomorrow, and I'm already dreading the performance.

Not because it's going to be a hard one. I almost know the play by heart already. It's the Complete Works of William Shakespeare abridged. This is one of the very few plays I've wanted to be in since I first started acting.

And yet I'm dreading the performance.

Because

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I don't do plays for anyone but me, but it is nice to have friends there. I don't get to show off often.

I DID do a play last year. That's the one I'm most pissed about no one being there for. Not only that, but I told EVERYONE about it. Multiple times. VERY far in advance. I was told "Oh yeah, we'll be there! Keep us posted!" And I did. And it didn't happen. It was the benefit show. I was getting to play my first dramatic role ever. Also: You didn't tell me you were depressed. You said you were "too tired." Emily said that she was sick with a cold. And Liz said that she was too poor, even after I told her I'd pay for the gas and the ticket if she wanted me to. All I wanted was to have someone there for the most important performance of my life. Which wasn't Arabian Nights, but for the , which I had told you guys about not only months in advance, but kept reminding you of whenever I saw you.

Do you know when I found out that you guys weren't coming? THAT NIGHT. Do you have ANY idea how hard it was to go on stage with that kind of thing just hitting you? Thinking that people were going to be there when they weren't.

I was not old of the Dartmouth show until about two days before. When there was no way I'd be able to get a ride even if I wanted to. And I did want to.

Yes, I'm venting. But I've gone through this before more than once. I have a show, no one comes. It doesn't matter how far in advance, nor how often I've reminded, nor how many offers I've made to let people stay over, or go so far as to pay for their tickets.

It just doesn't happen. So yes, I'm venting. Because it fucking SUCKS.