I don't know why it upsets me so much...
...but I have an audition tomorrow, and I'm already dreading the performance.
Not because it's going to be a hard one. I almost know the play by heart already. It's the Complete Works of William Shakespeare abridged. This is one of the very few plays I've wanted to be in since I first started acting.
And yet I'm dreading the performance.
Because before the show will come my trying to gather up people from home to come see me. And then will come the inevitable let down from my friends, who will tell me half-hearted excuses in an attempt to, I don't know, make themselves feel less guilty from the way their voices sound over the phone.
It's enfuriating, and humiliating. I've begged, pleaded, cajoled, bribed, argued, fumed, and in general done everything I could think of to get people to come.
And then it STILL doesn't work. And I'm not really sure they know just how much that killed me inside. I'm still debating on whether or not I should even bother going to this audition in the first place.
So I'm not even going to try, I think, to tell people. Information'll be on Facebook if you're interested.
Because no one will come anyway. I may as well not even bother, save myself the effort.
Not because it's going to be a hard one. I almost know the play by heart already. It's the Complete Works of William Shakespeare abridged. This is one of the very few plays I've wanted to be in since I first started acting.
And yet I'm dreading the performance.
Because before the show will come my trying to gather up people from home to come see me. And then will come the inevitable let down from my friends, who will tell me half-hearted excuses in an attempt to, I don't know, make themselves feel less guilty from the way their voices sound over the phone.
It's enfuriating, and humiliating. I've begged, pleaded, cajoled, bribed, argued, fumed, and in general done everything I could think of to get people to come.
And then it STILL doesn't work. And I'm not really sure they know just how much that killed me inside. I'm still debating on whether or not I should even bother going to this audition in the first place.
So I'm not even going to try, I think, to tell people. Information'll be on Facebook if you're interested.
Because no one will come anyway. I may as well not even bother, save myself the effort.