Empty Thoughts
not much has been happening lately... I was supposed to hang out with one of my good friends tonight, but got a call saying her dad had to be rushed to the hospital. Last I heard, they were running a lot of tests but hadn't gotten any results back yet. So I pray things will be ok
Tomorrow, I'm supposed to go out with Michael, my used-to-be best guy friend. So, I'm looking forward to that. My friend Chris, who goes to UM, has recently joined a band, so Michael was telling me how he planned to go down there to see one of Chris' shows... which I will definitely be attending!!! Gotta support my favorite boy. I miss him a lot lately. Well... more like him, Michael and Jarett. So, I'm gald Mike and I are gonna get to hang out before I leave. And I can't wait to see Chris again. As for Jarett... I still haven't gotten the nerve to call him up even though I think about him all the time. I'm not quite sure what I'm so afraid of... why do things always have to be so complicated when you grow up?!? I miss being the only girl in our crazy group, always acting wild and careless. But coming home always seems to make me kinda sad b/c I remember all the good times we had, and now that we've all gone our seperate ways, that things won't be the same. I miss when things were clear cut and simple. But I've heard that once you leave... you can never really go back, and it sucks that it took me this long to really see that. Guess its time for me to grow up and learn to say goodbye to it all.
Lyrics from a song by TBS:
Fill me up with false hope, cause I wish the world that I wasn't me
With no direction at all, I'm loosing faith in everything
I watch my dreams die off
It hurts to believe that words are just words
Dwelling on my own thoughts,
Choking on self proclaimed asperation
Circumvent my own faults
for shadows collapse in my heart
I watch my dreams die off as values make it
It hurts to believe that
words are just words without truth
And this sufficates me
Slit my wrists through again
Bleed me through these veins
Wiped clean with hopes of a new day
It hurts to believe,
That words are just words without truth
Tomorrow, I'm supposed to go out with Michael, my used-to-be best guy friend. So, I'm looking forward to that. My friend Chris, who goes to UM, has recently joined a band, so Michael was telling me how he planned to go down there to see one of Chris' shows... which I will definitely be attending!!! Gotta support my favorite boy. I miss him a lot lately. Well... more like him, Michael and Jarett. So, I'm gald Mike and I are gonna get to hang out before I leave. And I can't wait to see Chris again. As for Jarett... I still haven't gotten the nerve to call him up even though I think about him all the time. I'm not quite sure what I'm so afraid of... why do things always have to be so complicated when you grow up?!? I miss being the only girl in our crazy group, always acting wild and careless. But coming home always seems to make me kinda sad b/c I remember all the good times we had, and now that we've all gone our seperate ways, that things won't be the same. I miss when things were clear cut and simple. But I've heard that once you leave... you can never really go back, and it sucks that it took me this long to really see that. Guess its time for me to grow up and learn to say goodbye to it all.
Lyrics from a song by TBS:
Fill me up with false hope, cause I wish the world that I wasn't me
With no direction at all, I'm loosing faith in everything
I watch my dreams die off
It hurts to believe that words are just words
Dwelling on my own thoughts,
Choking on self proclaimed asperation
Circumvent my own faults
for shadows collapse in my heart
I watch my dreams die off as values make it
It hurts to believe that
words are just words without truth
And this sufficates me
Slit my wrists through again
Bleed me through these veins
Wiped clean with hopes of a new day
It hurts to believe,
That words are just words without truth