Damn Denver!
So... as for the whole idea of kissing guy friends to see if it effects
the relationship... that was the STUPIDEST idea I've ever had, and
someone should have slapped me out of it before I decided to test it
out myself!!! And all I can say is... if you're going to kiss a
friend... make sure its a freakin great makeout session so that you can
savor it while it happens... b/c tomorrow... things will be
weird! Ronnie is bouncing back from it... but I didnt initiate it
with him, but there are a couple others who thought that maybe I would
want more... so I felt bad for leading them on.
So for New Year's Eve, I ended up blowing off some people to make other plans... and trust me...I got an earful from it. But I was somewhat content with the choice I made. I decided to go to Gainsville and party it up with some close friends. I tried to talk Marc into coming, but then just gave up b/c I didn't want to admit that I wanted him there... damn my stubbornness!! He ended up staying home which kinda made me more sad. Anyhow... when I got there... I met this girl who was trying to move into her apartment, so some of us helped her move. She is cool as hell! Her name is Debrah, she's from Jamaica, has a kick ass accent, and she bought me lots of alcohol for helping her out and being her first friend there. When she asked me if I drank and if to repay us, she could buy alcohol... I said sure... thinking she'd come out with like 2 six packs or whatever... she comes out with 6 6-packs, and a 12 pack. She didn't even ask us to pay for anything. Like I said... really nice girl! lol
The whole night was pretty fun meeting a few new people... but of course... like every other time in my life... I got myself into more trouble. Matt's roommate for some strange reason has this huge crush on me... and I felt bad for him b/c he didn't get a kiss at midnight and Megan had said how he was sorta depressed about the whole thing and whatever... so I kissed him, which led to know more than kissing, but there was a good bit of it... what can I say... I was drunk!! After drinking 2, 6-packs that nite... I didn't really care who I was kissing at the moment... that's bad to say, I know. Anyhow, now he's left broken hearted... and I should feel bad... but I'm not completely sure if I do or not yet. I warned him ahead of time... and he knew I was trashed... not my fault! lol
So yesterday, I got home at 1030am once I finally sobered up enough to drive home...and my mom says we're having company over. So I thought I had time for a nap... but I was wrong! Joy and Anthony came over with the kids... and we had a wonderful time, but I was sooo tired!! I tried to stay away from Kent as much as possible b/c I was tired, so I stuck to holding Eli. He is soooo cute now!!! :) and he knows my voice and face, b/c I try to be around Joy's kids as much as I can since I have to go back to Tampa soon. But little Eli smiles every time I talk or sing to him, or when I'm dancing around the room with him. He's so precious!
As for Marc... its very touch and go... one day he thinks I'm wonderful, the next day, I've done something else wrong... go figure. Anyhow...Jaguars won today... and I was happy... but damn the denver broncs b/c they won too... so the Jags aren't going to any playoffs:( very very sad day... so I'm jamming out to some Pink Floyd to forget it all. Hope everyone has a wonderful new year!
So for New Year's Eve, I ended up blowing off some people to make other plans... and trust me...I got an earful from it. But I was somewhat content with the choice I made. I decided to go to Gainsville and party it up with some close friends. I tried to talk Marc into coming, but then just gave up b/c I didn't want to admit that I wanted him there... damn my stubbornness!! He ended up staying home which kinda made me more sad. Anyhow... when I got there... I met this girl who was trying to move into her apartment, so some of us helped her move. She is cool as hell! Her name is Debrah, she's from Jamaica, has a kick ass accent, and she bought me lots of alcohol for helping her out and being her first friend there. When she asked me if I drank and if to repay us, she could buy alcohol... I said sure... thinking she'd come out with like 2 six packs or whatever... she comes out with 6 6-packs, and a 12 pack. She didn't even ask us to pay for anything. Like I said... really nice girl! lol
The whole night was pretty fun meeting a few new people... but of course... like every other time in my life... I got myself into more trouble. Matt's roommate for some strange reason has this huge crush on me... and I felt bad for him b/c he didn't get a kiss at midnight and Megan had said how he was sorta depressed about the whole thing and whatever... so I kissed him, which led to know more than kissing, but there was a good bit of it... what can I say... I was drunk!! After drinking 2, 6-packs that nite... I didn't really care who I was kissing at the moment... that's bad to say, I know. Anyhow, now he's left broken hearted... and I should feel bad... but I'm not completely sure if I do or not yet. I warned him ahead of time... and he knew I was trashed... not my fault! lol
So yesterday, I got home at 1030am once I finally sobered up enough to drive home...and my mom says we're having company over. So I thought I had time for a nap... but I was wrong! Joy and Anthony came over with the kids... and we had a wonderful time, but I was sooo tired!! I tried to stay away from Kent as much as possible b/c I was tired, so I stuck to holding Eli. He is soooo cute now!!! :) and he knows my voice and face, b/c I try to be around Joy's kids as much as I can since I have to go back to Tampa soon. But little Eli smiles every time I talk or sing to him, or when I'm dancing around the room with him. He's so precious!
As for Marc... its very touch and go... one day he thinks I'm wonderful, the next day, I've done something else wrong... go figure. Anyhow...Jaguars won today... and I was happy... but damn the denver broncs b/c they won too... so the Jags aren't going to any playoffs:( very very sad day... so I'm jamming out to some Pink Floyd to forget it all. Hope everyone has a wonderful new year!