Since no one reads this....
Ill post it here.
Ever have one of those moments of clarity? You know where you realize something that seems to be staring you in the face and wonder, :how long have I not been seeing this?"
That is me in the now. We \have a friend visiting for the weekend and in passing I mentioned a situation with someone who I have felt very close to, but sadly we have drifted apart. Apparently, without me knowing it and what is worse is that this friend seems to feel it is my part. Now I know better anything takes two to make and two to break. But it was like a smack in the face. And when I looked around I realized that a lot of the people I once felt very close to aren't close to me at all now.
I know my recent work on my Doctorate has been a reason I have been preoccupied, but that is a shitty excuse to not be a good friend. I also know that my job and its related stresses haven't helped much, but again no excuse. What I do see though is who is standing there right next to me. The man who helps me soar higher than I ever thought I could. The man who holds me when I am at my lowest and continues to love me without hesitation. I am beyond lucky to have Ron in my life, and I guess when it all comes down to it its the reason why I said yes when he asked me to marry him. I am a better man for being his partner. I am a happier man when he is near and sadder when he is not.
So the sum up is that when I thought I had no one there with me it turns out I have all I truly need standing there right next to me.
This doesn't mean I miss my friends any less or that I don't wish we were closer, it just means that I know no matter what how lucky I truly am.
Ever have one of those moments of clarity? You know where you realize something that seems to be staring you in the face and wonder, :how long have I not been seeing this?"
That is me in the now. We \have a friend visiting for the weekend and in passing I mentioned a situation with someone who I have felt very close to, but sadly we have drifted apart. Apparently, without me knowing it and what is worse is that this friend seems to feel it is my part. Now I know better anything takes two to make and two to break. But it was like a smack in the face. And when I looked around I realized that a lot of the people I once felt very close to aren't close to me at all now.
I know my recent work on my Doctorate has been a reason I have been preoccupied, but that is a shitty excuse to not be a good friend. I also know that my job and its related stresses haven't helped much, but again no excuse. What I do see though is who is standing there right next to me. The man who helps me soar higher than I ever thought I could. The man who holds me when I am at my lowest and continues to love me without hesitation. I am beyond lucky to have Ron in my life, and I guess when it all comes down to it its the reason why I said yes when he asked me to marry him. I am a better man for being his partner. I am a happier man when he is near and sadder when he is not.
So the sum up is that when I thought I had no one there with me it turns out I have all I truly need standing there right next to me.
This doesn't mean I miss my friends any less or that I don't wish we were closer, it just means that I know no matter what how lucky I truly am.