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-hooch to BAM-
jeeze. i know what thats like.
...like id never let you know, but i get upset so much. im a weenie i guess. i dunno. and theres nothing worse than feeling like... like the only person you even want to care about you just... doesnt. at all. (and if pummer would like to come downstairs and hug me right now that would be great ;-;) like... life just kicks your ass and then the ONLY person who you even want support from just leaves you there. and even though somewhere you know its better for you... you dont ever want to get away from that person... sometimes just because you dont want them to find someone better.
if he was good to you... christ. i guarantee he would NEVER find anyone better. EVER. youre amazing BAM.
and life sucks a lot. like i dont know why it has to be so hard. but it is. and for whatever reason we just keep going like little windup dolls... and its like you have no control. someone spins you up and you just dont stop no matter how bad you want to...
*sigh*
but i guess for our own reasons you and me have always been like that. well not always right? :( <3 never slip, never stumble. dont show pain. but we take so much until we just cant anymore. it just keeps coming and it takes us down. and then we just keep going. for me, thats just what it means to have a set of balls between my legs. for you... well you have a whole different set of reasons. but you never fail to amaze me.
...and then that one person whos supposed to care finally stops caring at all... and you find something better.
and you could never be happier.
<3
jeeze. i know what thats like.
...like id never let you know, but i get upset so much. im a weenie i guess. i dunno. and theres nothing worse than feeling like... like the only person you even want to care about you just... doesnt. at all. (and if pummer would like to come downstairs and hug me right now that would be great ;-;) like... life just kicks your ass and then the ONLY person who you even want support from just leaves you there. and even though somewhere you know its better for you... you dont ever want to get away from that person... sometimes just because you dont want them to find someone better.
if he was good to you... christ. i guarantee he would NEVER find anyone better. EVER. youre amazing BAM.
and life sucks a lot. like i dont know why it has to be so hard. but it is. and for whatever reason we just keep going like little windup dolls... and its like you have no control. someone spins you up and you just dont stop no matter how bad you want to...
*sigh*
but i guess for our own reasons you and me have always been like that. well not always right? :( <3 never slip, never stumble. dont show pain. but we take so much until we just cant anymore. it just keeps coming and it takes us down. and then we just keep going. for me, thats just what it means to have a set of balls between my legs. for you... well you have a whole different set of reasons. but you never fail to amaze me.
...and then that one person whos supposed to care finally stops caring at all... and you find something better.
and you could never be happier.
<3