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So I did it. I made it through school, and I made it through my Steve temptation.
Now I have pharm left, then my boards. eek.
Last Tuesday when I thought I failed Nursing, I called Steve, blamed him, told him I hated him and never wanted to talk to him again. Then I called Randy crying, and he drove up to see me right away. We spent a week straight together. He was so lovey dovey all week and never got sick of me and we had so much fun and talked and everything and he loves me and I'm falling in love with him. And I told Steve on Friday that it wasn't gonna happen. But he keeps texting me and I've been able to wash away all my feelings for him, but he still keeps trying.
and today I screwed up because he keeps saying he wants to see me so I finally gave in and told him I'd meet him for dessert, then 20 minutes later I backed out, and he got so upset because I got his hopes up then let them down. now he's super upset with me and i feel really bad, but i feel like id be betraying randy.
then i spent all of tonight texting randy about how upset i am that we are never going to see eachother this summer, and i got spoiled by waking up next to him for a week straight and now its not gonna happen again. but then again, itll give me time to hang out with my FRIENDS!! ill still miss him though... i finally found someone who wants to do all this fun stuff with me but he cant! i miss him.
Now I have pharm left, then my boards. eek.
Last Tuesday when I thought I failed Nursing, I called Steve, blamed him, told him I hated him and never wanted to talk to him again. Then I called Randy crying, and he drove up to see me right away. We spent a week straight together. He was so lovey dovey all week and never got sick of me and we had so much fun and talked and everything and he loves me and I'm falling in love with him. And I told Steve on Friday that it wasn't gonna happen. But he keeps texting me and I've been able to wash away all my feelings for him, but he still keeps trying.
and today I screwed up because he keeps saying he wants to see me so I finally gave in and told him I'd meet him for dessert, then 20 minutes later I backed out, and he got so upset because I got his hopes up then let them down. now he's super upset with me and i feel really bad, but i feel like id be betraying randy.
then i spent all of tonight texting randy about how upset i am that we are never going to see eachother this summer, and i got spoiled by waking up next to him for a week straight and now its not gonna happen again. but then again, itll give me time to hang out with my FRIENDS!! ill still miss him though... i finally found someone who wants to do all this fun stuff with me but he cant! i miss him.