i write in this thing because nobody reads it.
why is my neck muscle so sore?
better question...why cant i stop thinking about steve?
oo yea... maybe because he is AWESOME.
how many guys get their girlfriends a wii for their birthday? and after being together for a month?
not that it really affected how i feel about him... i dont need expensive things. but i mean it didnt hurt!
of course im not gonna see him til friday now bc of work. i dont really mind having to wait a week to see him every so often. it gives me something to look forward to at the end of the week, plus its cool bc he seems really excited to see me. plus it gives me all week to see my friends.
he'll be meeting the guys on friday... thats nerve-wrecking. i dont know what we are gonna do. i hope they like him. and i hope he likes them! im already afraid it might bother him that i hang out with guys so much. but i know hes not gonna say anything.
im getting so annoyed with these dreams... every dream i have is either steve being a really big jerk or its me cheating on him. wtf, subconcious?
saw matt the other day. took an order from him and his gf at work. it was slightly awkward, but she was really nice. i would wanna be friends with her if she wasnt dating matt. that would just make it weird.
its funny when you are dating someone and you completely try to disreguard their flaws. and you say "omg he's the best thing that ever happened to me." well when i was with matt, i made myself want to be with him..even though he was kind of jealous, didnt like my friends, and we fought ALL the time and tried to change eachother too much. then with richie, i was happy bc of stupid little things like the things he said to me...even though actions speak louder than words. plus i liked his family and that he liked my family. for some reason i looked past the whole alcoholism, pot-smoking, cigarrettes, talking to his ex behind my back and lying about absolutely everything. and now with steve, im trying to figure out what it is that i am looking past. i mean nobody is perfect, but we compliment eachothers flaws so much that its hard to notice his. it would bother other girls that he doesnt drink, spends all his time at the gym and puts work ahead of his social life. but since i do the same, im just impressed with him. and he's got kind of a tough guy attitude which works for me since i pretend im tough. but at the same time he's really romantic. and he's really supportive. plus he's understanding about the chastity thing...whether i stick to it or not is a different story, but as far as he knows, im sticking to it, and he doesn't care. unlike a certain someone who ACTED like he respected me, but in reality, he PRETENDED to be in love with me so that he could try to get me to have sex with him. not in drastic ways, but just in very very disrete ways that were almost unnoticeable but almost worked. ANYWAY.... to sum it up, steven is my perfect match. everyone says it.
better question...why cant i stop thinking about steve?
oo yea... maybe because he is AWESOME.
how many guys get their girlfriends a wii for their birthday? and after being together for a month?
not that it really affected how i feel about him... i dont need expensive things. but i mean it didnt hurt!
of course im not gonna see him til friday now bc of work. i dont really mind having to wait a week to see him every so often. it gives me something to look forward to at the end of the week, plus its cool bc he seems really excited to see me. plus it gives me all week to see my friends.
he'll be meeting the guys on friday... thats nerve-wrecking. i dont know what we are gonna do. i hope they like him. and i hope he likes them! im already afraid it might bother him that i hang out with guys so much. but i know hes not gonna say anything.
im getting so annoyed with these dreams... every dream i have is either steve being a really big jerk or its me cheating on him. wtf, subconcious?
saw matt the other day. took an order from him and his gf at work. it was slightly awkward, but she was really nice. i would wanna be friends with her if she wasnt dating matt. that would just make it weird.
its funny when you are dating someone and you completely try to disreguard their flaws. and you say "omg he's the best thing that ever happened to me." well when i was with matt, i made myself want to be with him..even though he was kind of jealous, didnt like my friends, and we fought ALL the time and tried to change eachother too much. then with richie, i was happy bc of stupid little things like the things he said to me...even though actions speak louder than words. plus i liked his family and that he liked my family. for some reason i looked past the whole alcoholism, pot-smoking, cigarrettes, talking to his ex behind my back and lying about absolutely everything. and now with steve, im trying to figure out what it is that i am looking past. i mean nobody is perfect, but we compliment eachothers flaws so much that its hard to notice his. it would bother other girls that he doesnt drink, spends all his time at the gym and puts work ahead of his social life. but since i do the same, im just impressed with him. and he's got kind of a tough guy attitude which works for me since i pretend im tough. but at the same time he's really romantic. and he's really supportive. plus he's understanding about the chastity thing...whether i stick to it or not is a different story, but as far as he knows, im sticking to it, and he doesn't care. unlike a certain someone who ACTED like he respected me, but in reality, he PRETENDED to be in love with me so that he could try to get me to have sex with him. not in drastic ways, but just in very very disrete ways that were almost unnoticeable but almost worked. ANYWAY.... to sum it up, steven is my perfect match. everyone says it.