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I have been having some major issues with Ari(huh thats all i seems to talk about)
Last night he told me that Daddy is the only one who takes care of him and he likes daddy better because i am a bad mommy.
I am really trying fucking hard.
So tonight I decided to send elliot and scott out alone so ari and i could play and try to reconnect since we never have alone time anymore. He freaked out and clung to Scott's leg, wouldnt let him leave. He was screaming " I dont want to stay with her. She screams at me"
My heart broke totally. It was confirmation that i really am a terrible mother. my own baby doesnt want to be with me.
Our house is chaos, Ari threw a 1.5 HOUR tantrum this wekend. Punching me, kicking me screaming, swearing.
I want out. I cant believe I have failed so miserably.
Last night he told me that Daddy is the only one who takes care of him and he likes daddy better because i am a bad mommy.
I am really trying fucking hard.
So tonight I decided to send elliot and scott out alone so ari and i could play and try to reconnect since we never have alone time anymore. He freaked out and clung to Scott's leg, wouldnt let him leave. He was screaming " I dont want to stay with her. She screams at me"
My heart broke totally. It was confirmation that i really am a terrible mother. my own baby doesnt want to be with me.
Our house is chaos, Ari threw a 1.5 HOUR tantrum this wekend. Punching me, kicking me screaming, swearing.
I want out. I cant believe I have failed so miserably.