being a failure

Oct 15, 2008 19:59

I'm failing.
At everything.

Now I don't only hate university, I wish it would die. Somewhere down the line, someone involved in the educational process should have realized that if a teacher sees a student as a number, teaching will be ineffective. Let me take you over my recent assignment grades.

Writing Assignment 1 - 6.5/10
Information Technology Assignment 1 - 62/100
Management of the Enterprise Assignment 1 - 5.25/10

On the horizon, awaiting for my Midterm marks which are essentially a crap shoot and could land anywhere between 50-75. Last night, I submitted a writing assignment which I expect to hover in the 5-6/10 range. I've got a million more assignments that I'm not qualified to be doing, and will likely range in the 60's as well.

Bottomline, my GPA at the end of this semester could easily land in the 2.0 range. And what does this mean? It means I'm not learning anything, and I feel terrible about myself. I know the common thing to do is look to improve, but somehow I've learn to feel content with my own mediocrity. I used to strive for perfection, now I strive for completion.

I'm not sure what to do anymore. I'm paying 6 grand for something that makes me want to kill myself. Maybe it's just me, but I find something wrong there. Maybe I'm not cut out for it. But if I'm not, then what good am I.

I guess I have to find out...
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