So close...
I'm so close to being done it hurts...literally...I've been lifting and bending and sitting all day, and my back is about through with me. It hates me...a lot...but it'll be happy tomorrow when it's DONE FOR THE SEMESTER...yep, that's right, this time tomorrow I'll be back in Ossining with the family. Werdsause. My last (and thankfully only) final is tomorrow from noon till 2. I'm kinda nervous about it, but I might be able to pull something acceptable out. I should be studying for that now, but I had to take a break to recharge the brain. I've been going over the review sheet, and I think I'll be ok on almost everything that's on it, but the professor left out a section because she hadn't written it yet...and it's that part that makes me nervous. It's my Politics of the Pacific Rim class, so I honestly have no idea how it'll turn out. Oh well, I suppose I'll see tomorrow...I'll get up early to finish studying, and I might start packing up my car so I can bounce out as soon as I'm done with the test. I'm hoping to be on the road between 2 and 3, which will get me home between 6:30 and 7 if things go according to plan. I'm really excited to be leaving. The only thing I'm sad to leave behind is a small number of people who I won't get to see till August, but even some of them will be in touch this summer, so it's not too bad. They're all Goucher people, since the Towson boy was more a disappointment than anything. He's an awesome guy, and I do like him a lot, but that one missed weekend turned into 4 missed hangouts in 2 weeks, one of which was my huge spring concert with Red Hot Blue. That was such a big deal to me, and he knew it, but decided to sleep instead since he was up partying all night the night before. That's a big no-no as far as I'm concerned, but whatever. I saw him this past weekend, against all judgement and advice from my friends, but I really needed closure on the whole thing. I was really ambivilent about what to do before I saw him. There was a part of me that really wanted to give him another chance, since I enjoy his company and I thought that he was really sincere in his apologies and that it wasn't his fault that we had to miss each other for so long...but then there was a part of me that was really offended and upset by the way things turned out and kept finding fault in him for certain things (which I definitely still don't really like at all). I decided that the best way to work out what to do was to go see him one more time and let my gut tell me what to do, since it's usually right. I decided that I'd definitely let him know how I felt about the whole thing, but I wouldn't pick a fight or anything. I wanted to see how it felt to be with him again...and while a lot about it felt right, the same connection wasn't there for me anymore. I definitely wouldn't mind staying in touch with him, since he's a chill guy, but I don't know if I can be as excited about actually getting into something with him as I was before. I think that he said he was going to try to stay in touch this summer...so it's on him as of now as far as I'm concerned. I just think that we have so little in common that having anything more than a casual friendship (minus the benefits that we had...even though they were awesome, to say the very least) might be kinda hard. Whatever, it was fun while it lasted...and now it'll be home to Ossining, where there prolly won't be any "benefits" of any kind...which isn't always the worst thing in the world, but it'd be nice, lol! What will be nice is spending time with friends and making some amazing music. That's prolly going to be the coolest thing ever. I'm really looking forward to re-recording my stuff with the boys, and trying out to be the lead singer of their band. If I don't get that, I'm hoping they'll still help me out with my stuff so that I can maybe get a little more attention, and a much better demo. Houm and I want to go up to the Chance on the 25th for their Industry Night to see if we can get contacts...they're having promoters, studio people, and other big shots coming to this thing, so if we actually have something workable recording-wise, we could get a shot...which would be amazing. I'm not getting my hopes up TOO high, just thinking about all the possibilities this summer has to be the best ever. I'm also going up to visit Greg, which is going to be insane. He wants me to go up to Burlington May 26th-28th, which is what the plan is as of right now, but I might have to change that due to family stuff and horrible traffic since that's memorial day weekend...but we'll see...in any case, there'll be at least one weekend this summer that's going to be hardcore partying up in VT with my Greg, which is sooooo exciting. I can't wait to see that boy, I adore him. He's probably one of my very favorite people ver. I so badly wish he was closer so I could spend more time with him...maybe if I end up having to transfer, I'll be up there hanging out all the time, lol. anyway...I better get back to studying for this damn final...I'll be home 24 hours from now!!! celebration time, baby!