I have done all that I can, I have done all that I'll stand for...
So...here I am, updating again. Things are...well...winding down for the year, and as always, they're complicated. I've been working my ass off lately to try and get back to where I should be, since things have been slipping due to way too much sickness this year, but apparently there's going to be a lot more struggle than I thought. I got a letter saying that the scholarship committee is reviewing my scholarship since my grades have dropped below the point I need to maintain my scholarship...and if I don't get a 3.0 this semester, they're taking it away...the thing is, I don't think I'm going to get it. That means I need to transfer out, and that kinda sucks. Well...I don't know, it's complicated. I've been thinking about transferring out of here for a while, since I'm utterly miserable here quite often, but at the same time, that's really messy to do, and who knows where I'd end up, cuz it'd have to be somewhere cheap so that I can afford it...that's the reason I'd have to leave in the first place, since my family can't afford this school without the help of the scholarship. I would think about going to school up at UVM, since that's where I'd want to go anyway, but I don't know if my credits would transfer and if it's cheaper than here...we'd have to look into it, but that's my option for now...since it's near mountains, Burton, and my beloved Greg...so I dunno what to do. I just kinda hope my grades stay up so I don't have to deal with it, but there's not too much I can do as of right now because I'm working my ass off and who knows how far that'll get me. Whatever. Anyway, so there's that whole drama, and then there's just the normal end of the semester freakouts induced by too much work and not enough time. I have assloads of papers and other work to do as well as 2 finals coming up, which is fine, but I just have to find the time to get it all done. I'm not super worried about that, it's just kind of a daunting task to get it all worked out. I have my room for next year, which isn't my first choice, but at least it's a single. I'm going back to where I lived first semester last year, which sucks, but I do have a single, and I'm living next door to a good friend, which is nice. The whole room draw thing was about the biggest heart attack ever, but now it's done and all I have to do is go by the room and see how it is and what kind of space I have for my stuff for next year. Everything else seems to be going okay actually. The boy situation is...well...as unstable as ever, but it's not really that bad. I'm still seeing the Towson boy, even though we missed each other this weekend somehow, and I thought he'd forgotten about me, but we're hanging out this coming weekend, and I suppose we'll see how that goes. It'd be cool if we could figure out a way to bridge the summer so I have something here when I get back next year, but G-d only knows if that'll work out. again, we'll have to wait and see. There's also another complication, but it's one that I can do absolutely nothing about but let it do it's thing, which is looking like yet another amazing guy friend. I'm okay with that, but secretly, I want him really badly...well, maybe not so secretly, lol, but I wouldn't ever cross the lines that exist there. It'll do what it'll do, and we'll see with him too what happens when we come back next year. Maybe the lines won't be there anymore, and htat'd be awesome...but I'm not holding my breath for that one, lol. Soooo...oh yeah, GIG is this weekend. That's Get Into Goucher day, the day where they cancel classes at noon and put up inflatable rides and a ferris wheel and stuff and let us play...it's also the day when people get insanely wasted and have a great time, so it should be fun. I'm working on the whole thing since I'm part of House Council, the group that puts it on, so it should be fun. I get to hang out with the band that's playing our concert that night, so it should be cool. Oh, and in other news, speaking of things I'm involved in, it turns out that I'm going to be on exec board for Red Hot Blue (my a capella group) next year! I'm the AIDS Site Coordinator, so it's basically my job to deal with the fundraising and stuff, since the group is a fundraising group for the AIDS cause. It should be cool, and definitely something I can put my heart into, so I'm stoked. PS about RHB...if anyone's going to be in the area or wants to be awesome, we're doing our spring concert on May 11th. It's going to be awesome, we're premiering a lot of new stuff, so it should be great. it's going to be a pretty late show, since people are still in class until 9 or 9:30ish I think, but whatever, it'll be worth it. So yeah, I think that's all for now...I should have been writing a paper, but that was so not what my mind is on...anyway, I'm going to get back to work, and I'll catch up with everyone again later...