balloons.
today was such a weird day. i got up to work out, and spent my usual 1.5 hr at the SRSC, before most people are up. by the time i got up and showered it was a beautiful sunny day. i went to my first class, got a test back that i was hoping to do better on, went to my second class and was so uncomfortable and got stuck in the dumb squeaky desk. ps. the worst movie ever is forbidden planet. i have a paper due on tuesday and i havent read the book yet. who knows when i will get around to that. my third class was canceled and i didnt feel like waiting around for my fourth class, so i went home. by this time its freezing windy and cloudy. i cleaned up the house, and went to lifting.
i went to dinner with my team, and then we decorated stuff for amy's birthday tomorrow. jemima leaves tomorrow, and that doesnt feel real, and amys birthday has dragged on for weeks. its so strange. but the best part was i felt ok around my team again. even if it was for a brief two hours, i felt comfortable, and made them laugh, and they made me laugh. i felt ok being who i am, and i think that i just want them to like me for that, and not because they have to because they are my teammates. sometimes thats how it is. sometimes i can only shake my head at college athletics.
my mama comes tomorrow. its going to be a good weekend, then jodi comes on sunday, david gray concert on monday! yeah! she is helping me make a package for mathew, and we're hangin out like old times. i have so much to do schoolwork-wise, but it'll get done another time. im looking forward to meaningful conversation again. its been awhile.
i went to dinner with my team, and then we decorated stuff for amy's birthday tomorrow. jemima leaves tomorrow, and that doesnt feel real, and amys birthday has dragged on for weeks. its so strange. but the best part was i felt ok around my team again. even if it was for a brief two hours, i felt comfortable, and made them laugh, and they made me laugh. i felt ok being who i am, and i think that i just want them to like me for that, and not because they have to because they are my teammates. sometimes thats how it is. sometimes i can only shake my head at college athletics.
my mama comes tomorrow. its going to be a good weekend, then jodi comes on sunday, david gray concert on monday! yeah! she is helping me make a package for mathew, and we're hangin out like old times. i have so much to do schoolwork-wise, but it'll get done another time. im looking forward to meaningful conversation again. its been awhile.