So i know that i've been neglecting this thing. i feel bad. but i'm so addicted to fucking myspace. it's a curse. :/ and most of my friends arent even on this thing anymore anyway.... and i doubt anyone is going to read this. so whatever. I think that my livejournal days might be coming to a sad, sad end.

so this is my first post in over a year. how weird. anyways. so i have been at a residential school in utah for 11 months. I just moved back to california on saturday. The year has gone by so fast... I mean really, really fast. but it's been a good year. I mean, it's never fun to be sent away to UTAH for a year, but it was an overall very good ( Read more... )

I spent new year's eve with angelica (this awesome girl from rehab) and her family. They are really fun to be around. Jelly and i stayed up till 6 something making crack whores on tony hawk's underground thing for xbox. It was so fucking hilarious. I think that it is my new favorite game of all time. I got my "9 month" chip last night at a ( Read more... )

ughghhg. why are people so fucking STUPID?!?!? it is driving me crazy. people are always telling me "how things are" and "what i am thinking" and "what i want"... let me figure it out on my own you fucking bastards!! If i need your fucking advice, then i'll ask for it. AND i am also sick of people "adding in their two cents" about some of my ( Read more... )

Christmas sucked. as usual. But it sucked even more this year. My day consisted of being online, crying, mingling with family for 20 minutes, going back to my computer, crying some more... my life is so emotional. The only thing that i have felt like doing lately is getting fucked up... cant do that =/ for those of you who knew about the " ( Read more... )

The christmas sing along was SO FUCKING AWESOME. I had been waiting for it since the end of last year's sing along. And now i am waiting (without patience) for the next one! It is my favorite time of the year. If i could live in a christmas sing along world i would. there is just something so special about it....everyone coming together to ( Read more... )

Chemistry...chemistry...chemistry... AHHHHHHH. FOR THE LOVE OF GOD MAKE IT STOP! It is so impounded into my brain that i am thinking of chemical equations without even realizing it. Damn you dre. DAMN YOU. Last night i even had a dream about crazy pipettes spraying chemicals everywhere and trying to take over the world. =/

this year is becoming such a blur. It is going by insanely fast. I guess that is a good thing. In a few days it will be christmas... then my birthday... then before I know it the school year will be over... crazy. My brother is turning 30... i remember going to his high school graduation. he just got married and is now having a baby in early ( Read more... )

I have been extremely paranoid and cautious of my surroundings. more so than usual. I haven't been trusting anyone or really talking to much of anybody. I have really been starting to isolate myself from a lot of settings and situations. I dont feel safe any where. This has been going on for a little while, but the situation that occurred most ( Read more... )

i love how little kids think that their parents know everything. it is so innocent. It is sort of comforting in a way to hear a kid ask their parents tons and tons of questions. It makes me think that at least SOME things on this earth are left untainted. Well, at least for the time being. Because soon enough those kids will grow up, hate ( Read more... )