cause i kinda feel like i need to be near you
This is my attempt to sort everything out:
1. I feel like there is nothing for me at Eastern. I feel no real connection with people here anymore. I had some good ones, and even amazing ones, but I just feel that by my own doing, I have officially severed them, with nothing but good intentions in mind. I'm homesick and sad all the time. I just want to be home, I want it to be summer, I'm not ready to grow up and be a big girl. I'm lonely as hell, and it fucking hurts.
2. I'm not sure what I feel for him anymore. I know that I miss him. I know that I love him. But I feel like my feelings have changed. And I don't quite no how. I just wish I knew that he still cared. I wish I knew that I wasn't the only one who's unhappy about our situation, and yet I feel like I am. I feel like I'm sinking.
3. My school work is a mess. I can't concentrate on it. I always have my mind on something else. It just feels like my mind is never at peace. Just once I want to wake up in the morning and not stress myself out right away. I know everyone says i need to relax and stuff, but that doesn't help. Telling me to take it easy, and telling me i need to just relax only adds to my stress b/c then i know that i'm affecting other people and i worry about that too.
4. I have zero dollars, and I need books for my classes and groceries for my tummy. But I won't get paid till the end of September.
5. I dont know why i'm complaining b/c there are so many people who have it worse than i do. Where's Perks when you need it ??
1. I feel like there is nothing for me at Eastern. I feel no real connection with people here anymore. I had some good ones, and even amazing ones, but I just feel that by my own doing, I have officially severed them, with nothing but good intentions in mind. I'm homesick and sad all the time. I just want to be home, I want it to be summer, I'm not ready to grow up and be a big girl. I'm lonely as hell, and it fucking hurts.
2. I'm not sure what I feel for him anymore. I know that I miss him. I know that I love him. But I feel like my feelings have changed. And I don't quite no how. I just wish I knew that he still cared. I wish I knew that I wasn't the only one who's unhappy about our situation, and yet I feel like I am. I feel like I'm sinking.
3. My school work is a mess. I can't concentrate on it. I always have my mind on something else. It just feels like my mind is never at peace. Just once I want to wake up in the morning and not stress myself out right away. I know everyone says i need to relax and stuff, but that doesn't help. Telling me to take it easy, and telling me i need to just relax only adds to my stress b/c then i know that i'm affecting other people and i worry about that too.
4. I have zero dollars, and I need books for my classes and groceries for my tummy. But I won't get paid till the end of September.
5. I dont know why i'm complaining b/c there are so many people who have it worse than i do. Where's Perks when you need it ??