inside my stupid head...
Things that make me SAD:
-because I know I cannot EVER allow myself to fall apart because there would be no one there to pick up the pieces and so I must pretend to be strong and never give in to my intense emotions!!!
-best friend is away on a family vacation and I miss him...haven't spoken since July 3rd & he won't be back until the 25th...I am having withdrawal...:o( but I won't admit this to anyone, God forbid that I would be so weak and actually "need" someone this much!!
-my home computer has been 'out of order' this week...making it even HARDER for me to get on here!
Things that make me MAD:
-that I have to be the one that calls or sends emails ALL THE TIME!
-that he left without saying good-bye and won't feel the need to talk to me until he gets back to work!
-the hours my hubby is working...I NEVER see him!
Funny little story...
Last night I told him I feel HUGE and don't try to tell me that FAT isn't a 'feeling' because I FEEL FAT and I know what FAT feels like!!!! I was rambling on and on, venting to him which I never do especially about that!! I don't like to talk about any of that to him, I like to talk to anyone about it! So anyway he said "look at me...I have FAT, you don't!" then he kinda giggled and just listened to me go on & on about it! I was impressed because he actually tried to understand what I was seeing in the mirror that he couldn't see and how distorted my brain is! Instead of just saying 'oh stop it you're not FAT, I don't get why you say that!"
Maybe after knowing me and my 'issues' for 18 years he does "get me"...heh ;o)
I've been kind of sad lately and I can't seem to pull myself out of it the way I usually do :o(
-because I know I cannot EVER allow myself to fall apart because there would be no one there to pick up the pieces and so I must pretend to be strong and never give in to my intense emotions!!!
-best friend is away on a family vacation and I miss him...haven't spoken since July 3rd & he won't be back until the 25th...I am having withdrawal...:o( but I won't admit this to anyone, God forbid that I would be so weak and actually "need" someone this much!!
-my home computer has been 'out of order' this week...making it even HARDER for me to get on here!
Things that make me MAD:
-that I have to be the one that calls or sends emails ALL THE TIME!
-that he left without saying good-bye and won't feel the need to talk to me until he gets back to work!
-the hours my hubby is working...I NEVER see him!
Funny little story...
Last night I told him I feel HUGE and don't try to tell me that FAT isn't a 'feeling' because I FEEL FAT and I know what FAT feels like!!!! I was rambling on and on, venting to him which I never do especially about that!! I don't like to talk about any of that to him, I like to talk to anyone about it! So anyway he said "look at me...I have FAT, you don't!" then he kinda giggled and just listened to me go on & on about it! I was impressed because he actually tried to understand what I was seeing in the mirror that he couldn't see and how distorted my brain is! Instead of just saying 'oh stop it you're not FAT, I don't get why you say that!"
Maybe after knowing me and my 'issues' for 18 years he does "get me"...heh ;o)
I've been kind of sad lately and I can't seem to pull myself out of it the way I usually do :o(