It hurt so much
these are the roses I got for valentines day :)
Last night was horrible, it was so terrible I still feel the pain now 12 hours later.
why does it have to be this way?
About 9pm last night we started arguing about money and who paid for what, it was stupid really. He likes to be right all the time and if he is ever wrong then shit hits the fan as they say. Well in this case he was 100% wrong and I have a photographic memory, so I can remember the time the day, what we were both wearing what the bank lady that we seen was wearing, even the type of car we parked next to at the bank for god sakes! but he has no idea I have a memory like that! I wouldn't dare tell him. Lets just say I was right about this one time and he was very wrong.
But anyway I stormed off in a grump and went to close the window. He came after me and walked straight up to me. I knew he was going to do some thing. the exact thought that went through my head was he is going to punch me, how bad will it hurt? at that moment he grabbed me into a headlock and held me tight around my throat. it hurt like hell, he was strangling me. It only last for about 5 seconds, then he pulled me around and threw me to the floor. The only problem though was when he threw me to the floor he did not let go of my neck. so it choked me even more. When he let go it was all over in about 8 seconds. But it scared the hell out of me not to mention hurt so bad.
I can still feel the tightness around my neck now, it's horrible.
He is sorry for what he done he regrets it and feels horrible. I have him right where he should be. Feeling guilty and like a dick head which he texted and told me this morning he feels that way.
I hope this never happens again. Luckily there are no marks around my throat, I hope that he sees how much he has hurt me inside. I can't tell him I love him at the moment it is too hard. I couldn't sleep last night incase he came at me a second time and tried to finish me off. But I do love him and I hope he doesn't do that to me again.......
This is prob my fav photo of the two of us, we are so happy here :)
Last night was horrible, it was so terrible I still feel the pain now 12 hours later.
why does it have to be this way?
About 9pm last night we started arguing about money and who paid for what, it was stupid really. He likes to be right all the time and if he is ever wrong then shit hits the fan as they say. Well in this case he was 100% wrong and I have a photographic memory, so I can remember the time the day, what we were both wearing what the bank lady that we seen was wearing, even the type of car we parked next to at the bank for god sakes! but he has no idea I have a memory like that! I wouldn't dare tell him. Lets just say I was right about this one time and he was very wrong.
But anyway I stormed off in a grump and went to close the window. He came after me and walked straight up to me. I knew he was going to do some thing. the exact thought that went through my head was he is going to punch me, how bad will it hurt? at that moment he grabbed me into a headlock and held me tight around my throat. it hurt like hell, he was strangling me. It only last for about 5 seconds, then he pulled me around and threw me to the floor. The only problem though was when he threw me to the floor he did not let go of my neck. so it choked me even more. When he let go it was all over in about 8 seconds. But it scared the hell out of me not to mention hurt so bad.
I can still feel the tightness around my neck now, it's horrible.
He is sorry for what he done he regrets it and feels horrible. I have him right where he should be. Feeling guilty and like a dick head which he texted and told me this morning he feels that way.
I hope this never happens again. Luckily there are no marks around my throat, I hope that he sees how much he has hurt me inside. I can't tell him I love him at the moment it is too hard. I couldn't sleep last night incase he came at me a second time and tried to finish me off. But I do love him and I hope he doesn't do that to me again.......
This is prob my fav photo of the two of us, we are so happy here :)