he called me physco....
Last night was so horrible. I mean it was bad enough doing nothing all weekend but then last night while we were washing dishes he started on me. Whispering to me "physco, your a physco. nut job, mental case" and I was like why are you saying that? and he replies "cause you slammed the door"..... I mean WTF!!!
I know it isn't much but it really got to me, he is trying to control me and get into my mind! I hate it. that is some nasty shit to say to the one your supposed to love wouldn't you agree? I'm so sick of it. He always calls me mental cause I used to take anti depressents. He is the reason I stopped taking them cause I was sick of him calling me mental and telling me to go take your happy pills. Why is he so nasty to me? Playing these mind games are horrible. Mental abuse is so much worse than pysical abuse i reckon. I hate him so much sometimes, but then other times I love him so much. Then sometimes I just wish i was dead so i didnt have to feel the love hate love hate, i tell you, being with him is like a fucking roller coaster ride. I'm over it, it's getting boring.
But then why can't i leave him? I think it is because i am scared of insecurity. I leave and i'm on my own. no where to live, no furniture..... that is a really sad way to look at things but i think that is why. If i had alot of money to start out by myself i am 80% sure i'd be gone in a flash! But I do love him and would be heart broken if we weren't together...... FUCK why am I so screwed up?
My dpression only started 1 year after I got together with him. I am not on medication anymore though, and will never take it again cause i am scared of being called mental, you know it realy hurts and makes me very sad and upset.
Sometimes he is such a fuckwit!! I hate men alot of the time, they think they have all the power over woman.
Right I suppose i better be off now to cook tea for him while he snoozes on the chair snoring! Arse hole!!
I know it isn't much but it really got to me, he is trying to control me and get into my mind! I hate it. that is some nasty shit to say to the one your supposed to love wouldn't you agree? I'm so sick of it. He always calls me mental cause I used to take anti depressents. He is the reason I stopped taking them cause I was sick of him calling me mental and telling me to go take your happy pills. Why is he so nasty to me? Playing these mind games are horrible. Mental abuse is so much worse than pysical abuse i reckon. I hate him so much sometimes, but then other times I love him so much. Then sometimes I just wish i was dead so i didnt have to feel the love hate love hate, i tell you, being with him is like a fucking roller coaster ride. I'm over it, it's getting boring.
But then why can't i leave him? I think it is because i am scared of insecurity. I leave and i'm on my own. no where to live, no furniture..... that is a really sad way to look at things but i think that is why. If i had alot of money to start out by myself i am 80% sure i'd be gone in a flash! But I do love him and would be heart broken if we weren't together...... FUCK why am I so screwed up?
My dpression only started 1 year after I got together with him. I am not on medication anymore though, and will never take it again cause i am scared of being called mental, you know it realy hurts and makes me very sad and upset.
Sometimes he is such a fuckwit!! I hate men alot of the time, they think they have all the power over woman.
Right I suppose i better be off now to cook tea for him while he snoozes on the chair snoring! Arse hole!!