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Click to viewYou call me. Text me. Text me. Call me. Text me. Text me at 5 AM. At 5:30 AM. Call me at 6. At 6:30. I ignore you until I see you, flesh and flesh. And remember now, I hate you more than I have ever hated anyone in this entire world. I hate you more than I hate rainy days without naps. I hate you more than a flat tire. I hate you for not allowing yourself to be there through the worst moments of my life. I hate you for being mediocre. For being a drunk. For not living up to your potential. I hate you. I hate you for not leaving me alone and letting me move on. At the end of the day, I hate you so much that I end up hating myself for loving you still. You have not deserved me for years now. You're not my project to fix. I hate your stupid passion and your perfect lips and your stupid fucking selfish tendencies. I hate that I would rather be in your bed tonight than in my own, sleeping firm and solid in my beliefs. I hate that I don't want you to ever go but I know that I need you to. You could have brought me the most beautiful thing in the entire world and still, you ran. You are the most disappointing person in my life. I am more heartbroken than I would like to admit and you don't even deserve the admiration. I'm the foolish one.