happy fucking t day
so im in a funk today, excuse me for being an asshole... no one wants to seem to deal with me today im pissed and depressed cuz my baby girl aint at home, my gf is a bitch to me almost all the time... and seems to only think of herself, grant it, i am an asshole, i drink when she drinks cuz i cant deal with her when she is drunk and i am sober, i also drink so that there wont be as much for her to drink, shes an alchohalic, we got our baby taken away because of her drinking and she still wont stop...no excuse on my part.... right now i hate life... i wish everyone would just die, or i wish that i didnt have to care about anyone.....but i do and thats the problem, i always care to much and never know how to show it so i push people away cuz the more i care, the more i hurt inside... everyday of my life has been a constant battle to fight the depression inside of me... i have been like this for so long i dont know any other way to be. so most people that meet me think i am a happy go lucky guy that is a pompous arrogant asshole.... no one bothers to take the time to really look inside... maybe i should be institutionalized? idk... meds never really worked for me, nor has therapy, hiding it seems the only way i can get thru life....