Alone
Dear LiveJournal and all who read this,
Here I sit. In bed. Ahhh. I just discovered that I can get wireless. So I am typing this on my laptop. That makes me happy. However, there are many things making me unhappy in my life right now. (insert emolicious self-loathing here...)
Just ate way too much vanilla ice cream (although it was really good... tasted like the vanilla ice cream from an ice cream sandwhich)
Went back to South for a basketball game and felt really lame (although I had an excuse = to watch dance team)
Having to be fake with someone.. I hate how much of a pushover I can be sometimes (although if I wasn't fake and didn't spend time with her, I don't know who she would spend time with...)
Two more weeks until I return to Virginia... two = too long and too short at the same time (although these mixed emotions are healthy and normal, they mean I'm happy there but haven't lost my love for Eugene)
Losing my best guy friend to another girl . So weird seeing them all over each other (although it makes me happy that he is so happy... well kind of)
Way too many awkward run-ins. Why can't we all be more mature now that we're in college? (although it is understandable that everyone's conversations are awkward, because we don't really have much common ground anymore)
I'm leaving for Bend on Friday for a week. A whole week. With the rents. With not much to do (although it will be really fun to go skiing and all that jazz)
I work again tomorrow. I kind of wish that I wasn't working this break because then I would have more time to spend with people (although I'm making much-needed money to finance my outrageously expensive college education and my outrageously expensive denim purchases from two weeks ago...)
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Damn HIM. That's all I have to say about that. Just so frustrated in that department... no although, no addendums, nothing. Just nothing. I feel empty
Here I sit. In bed. Ahhh. I just discovered that I can get wireless. So I am typing this on my laptop. That makes me happy. However, there are many things making me unhappy in my life right now. (insert emolicious self-loathing here...)
Just ate way too much vanilla ice cream (although it was really good... tasted like the vanilla ice cream from an ice cream sandwhich)
Went back to South for a basketball game and felt really lame (although I had an excuse = to watch dance team)
Having to be fake with someone.. I hate how much of a pushover I can be sometimes (although if I wasn't fake and didn't spend time with her, I don't know who she would spend time with...)
Two more weeks until I return to Virginia... two = too long and too short at the same time (although these mixed emotions are healthy and normal, they mean I'm happy there but haven't lost my love for Eugene)
Losing my best guy friend to another girl . So weird seeing them all over each other (although it makes me happy that he is so happy... well kind of)
Way too many awkward run-ins. Why can't we all be more mature now that we're in college? (although it is understandable that everyone's conversations are awkward, because we don't really have much common ground anymore)
I'm leaving for Bend on Friday for a week. A whole week. With the rents. With not much to do (although it will be really fun to go skiing and all that jazz)
I work again tomorrow. I kind of wish that I wasn't working this break because then I would have more time to spend with people (although I'm making much-needed money to finance my outrageously expensive college education and my outrageously expensive denim purchases from two weeks ago...)
...
Damn HIM. That's all I have to say about that. Just so frustrated in that department... no although, no addendums, nothing. Just nothing. I feel empty