A post.
I'm at Melinda's motel 6 party on her new laptop. I am drunk. And I wanted to document this night. No particular reason besides the fact that when I read back on this journal, I want to remember it.
It's still there.
Danielle and Bob have been going through some problems. Problems that I don't think Danielle needs to go through, but when you're so blindly in love with someone, its hard to see anything but you two together.
I got a new job. I teach kids how to dance after school for LAUSD with my good friend Kristi. I love it. I have a son. I believe his name is Carlos, but I might be wrong. He's this little hispanic boy who only understands Spanish, but I'm claiming him. He's my son.
I might be leaving for Flordia soon. DDO called me and said this company was interested in me for a job in Ft. Lauderdale, and they already wanted to put me on hold for it, which means I'm completely ready and willing to commit myself to it. I'd be gone from Dec. 1st all the way through the middle of Jan., and I'd make about $9000. In one and a haf months. I really hope I get that job.
Except I'd have to quit the LAUSD job.
:o\
I'm still drunk by the way. And I think this is the cleanest thing I've ever written.
Lol.
I taught my class in the Jr. Program (Teens Hip Hop) for the last time last Thursday. I'm really going to miss teaching them. I know I'm still going to be taking class with them all, but I just always had soo much fun with them in that class. Lol, I'm supposed to have this professional persona when teaching a class, ya know, but with them...right. Lol. I'm going to miss it.
So...I finally told Beau how I felt. For the past two years. And pathetically, it was over the internet in an IM. I mean, it played out exactly how I thought it would. It's why I never had the urgency to tell him the first place. He doesn't mess with friends regardless. And I'm thankful for that, even, that I care that much about him as a friend. Not even as anything more, but just, how closer we've gotten over the past months. And also, my biggest fear never came true. I was worried we'd get weird, but nothing's changed. And I'm really thankful for that.
But oh, what I am NOT thankful for is the law. Not like, real law, but like, stupid, expensive, traffic law. Granted, I knew the rules, and blindly neglected to follow them...but in one day...I ended up paying $100 in traffic fines.
(p'[['/') <--- Erick Serrano just typed that.
And also, then a motorcyclist, while passing my car on the freeway, decided to pound on the hood of my car.
I hate people.
I have to grow my hair back because I don't match my headshots anymore...kind of depressing because since I REALLY like my head shaved...and it's sooo much easier to take care of! Lol...I'm lazy. But no, I do really like it! And it's sad I can't keep it.
Omg, ok, so I've been waiting to say this forever but, like, wow, a month ago, I took Brain Freidman's and Kevin Maher's joint masterclass. And after class, I was thanking Brian, and he said, "You did the Disney peice fpr Carnival didn't you?" And I smiled, blushed, and replied, "Yeah." In which he said, "I loved it! Loved it."
....................
That's me being in shock. Happy shock.
Jessica and I have finally been practicing our duet. And I really, really like it. Jessica swears it's nothing special, but I know it is. We've been wanting this since fucking West Coast, and now Erika is actualy trusting us. Not even us, but me, to perform her choreography, and well. Jessica, not doubt. But I know she's a bit skeptical about me. I only hope to prove her hopes correct.
He keeps asking me if I'm ok...
Yes. I am.
I'm beyond feeling sad about things I can't control anymore. I like to flow.
I think I'm ready to put the laptop down. This entry satisfies me.
I'm done.
It's still there.
Danielle and Bob have been going through some problems. Problems that I don't think Danielle needs to go through, but when you're so blindly in love with someone, its hard to see anything but you two together.
I got a new job. I teach kids how to dance after school for LAUSD with my good friend Kristi. I love it. I have a son. I believe his name is Carlos, but I might be wrong. He's this little hispanic boy who only understands Spanish, but I'm claiming him. He's my son.
I might be leaving for Flordia soon. DDO called me and said this company was interested in me for a job in Ft. Lauderdale, and they already wanted to put me on hold for it, which means I'm completely ready and willing to commit myself to it. I'd be gone from Dec. 1st all the way through the middle of Jan., and I'd make about $9000. In one and a haf months. I really hope I get that job.
Except I'd have to quit the LAUSD job.
:o\
I'm still drunk by the way. And I think this is the cleanest thing I've ever written.
Lol.
I taught my class in the Jr. Program (Teens Hip Hop) for the last time last Thursday. I'm really going to miss teaching them. I know I'm still going to be taking class with them all, but I just always had soo much fun with them in that class. Lol, I'm supposed to have this professional persona when teaching a class, ya know, but with them...right. Lol. I'm going to miss it.
So...I finally told Beau how I felt. For the past two years. And pathetically, it was over the internet in an IM. I mean, it played out exactly how I thought it would. It's why I never had the urgency to tell him the first place. He doesn't mess with friends regardless. And I'm thankful for that, even, that I care that much about him as a friend. Not even as anything more, but just, how closer we've gotten over the past months. And also, my biggest fear never came true. I was worried we'd get weird, but nothing's changed. And I'm really thankful for that.
But oh, what I am NOT thankful for is the law. Not like, real law, but like, stupid, expensive, traffic law. Granted, I knew the rules, and blindly neglected to follow them...but in one day...I ended up paying $100 in traffic fines.
(p'[['/') <--- Erick Serrano just typed that.
And also, then a motorcyclist, while passing my car on the freeway, decided to pound on the hood of my car.
I hate people.
I have to grow my hair back because I don't match my headshots anymore...kind of depressing because since I REALLY like my head shaved...and it's sooo much easier to take care of! Lol...I'm lazy. But no, I do really like it! And it's sad I can't keep it.
Omg, ok, so I've been waiting to say this forever but, like, wow, a month ago, I took Brain Freidman's and Kevin Maher's joint masterclass. And after class, I was thanking Brian, and he said, "You did the Disney peice fpr Carnival didn't you?" And I smiled, blushed, and replied, "Yeah." In which he said, "I loved it! Loved it."
....................
That's me being in shock. Happy shock.
Jessica and I have finally been practicing our duet. And I really, really like it. Jessica swears it's nothing special, but I know it is. We've been wanting this since fucking West Coast, and now Erika is actualy trusting us. Not even us, but me, to perform her choreography, and well. Jessica, not doubt. But I know she's a bit skeptical about me. I only hope to prove her hopes correct.
He keeps asking me if I'm ok...
Yes. I am.
I'm beyond feeling sad about things I can't control anymore. I like to flow.
I think I'm ready to put the laptop down. This entry satisfies me.
I'm done.