&& i don't think that you know what you've been missing.

[rosesxregret]

bite the hand that feeds your face; one more thing you can replace. shut my mouth because i’m spilling all your dirty secrets. slap the wrist of this embrace. you're the one who's losing face. search the quiet corners, lock the door i can hear you screaming. don't wake up you're not really dreaming. when your world starts caving in, i'd still take

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[greensmycolor]

I know exactly how you feel about high school. especially about wanting security. I've been trying to figure out who to bother at lunch so I won't be alone, and sitting at home a lot on the weekends, more lately than I did, say, last year. and now I'm a senior I'm at the end. and yeah I've enjoyed high school to some degree, but I still feel like I've miss out on a lot. I feel like something's missing, and part of the reason I don't wanna grow up is that I haven't experiences everything I'm supposed to or something. so I'm frantically trying to "save" the whole situation for these last few months so I'll be able to look back and think this year was good, but the truth is, it's never going to be back to where it was other years. during those times I always had someone to hang out with and everything.

sorrrrrrrrry I just rambled on and on. but I guess it's just cause I relate so much. i definitely know what you mean about hating it but not wanting to leave. it's so scary when it is time to leave. aahhh. but everything always works out I guess... it's just that I'M not ever supposed to grow up.... other people can... but I'm not supposed to. siiiiiiiigh.

[rosesxregret]

noo that's so amazingly perfect. i'm only a sophomore but i haven't felt like i've experienced high school the way it should be AT ALL. i don't go to any cool parties or have a different boyfriend every second. it's just..ugh. everything you wrote is so true about me too. "I feel like something's missing, and part of the reason I don't wanna grow up is that I haven't experiences everything I'm supposed to or something. so I'm frantically trying to "save" the whole situation for these last few months so I'll be able to look back and think this year was good, but the truth is, it's never going to be back to where it was other years. during those times I always had someone to hang out with and everything." ESPECIALLY that. i don't ever want to grow up :(

[greensmycolor]

haha I have NEVER been to a typical high school party and I have NEVER had an official boyfriend. so that makes it all the more difficult. I hope you end up doing all that stuff, so I can live vicariously through you. you have no idea how jealous I am that you still have 2 more years after this. wow, if I could go back just two years.... ok, enough of thinking like that :/