Why?
It's hard to think clearly as I type this entry. I still find it hard to believe that you would do this. Do you have any idea how many people you've hurt with your "disappearing act"?
When I first heard of it, the only thing I could respond with was annoyance. The magnitude of what you were going to do didn't sink in until last night. When I was updated with news of what happened on Monday, I kept thinking that we'd see you again in school next week. It wasn't until last night, when they said that you'd already cross the borders that I realise how serious this was and that we most likely won't see you again in a long long while. What if we don't see you ever again?
I kept thinking back on how much help you gave us. Do you know that you've made an impact on many with the help you've rendered? You ideas and spirit have made a big difference to us. I feel so selfish now for not having shown more concern. I feel guilty for not being a better friend.
Don't you want to go through this period with us?
Don't you want to take the exams with us in November?
Don't you want to celebrate with us at the end of the year?
Don't you care about the class anymore?
Don't you feel sad that you might not see us for a long time?
How could you leave just like that? Without any explanation? Sure, things are tough. It's not going to be easy to cope, but we're all here to help one another, aren't we?
You were the last person that I thought would've done this. I always assumed that you would stand up to the challenges. It's scary to think that you are so uncontactable, to think there we have completely no idea of where you might be or what you are doing. All we can do is guess. That uncertainty unnerves me. There are so many things I want to ask you now. I'm sure the others feel this way too.
I hope that we'll get to see you again soon. And when we do, I hope to see you happy. Please, take care.