Ugh.. :/
First things first.... I put my application in at West. I need a new job, like STAT. This one just doesn't pay enough.
I want to move out. BAADDD. I've been saying this for how long, and still haven't done it. I feel like a failure. I'm trying to work on getting things setup so I can.
I've got a checking AND savings account... Nobody knows about the Savings account. I don't want anybody knowing about it. I'm trying to save up money to move, and if they know I have money, they'll find someway to weasel it outta me. :-/ I have 25 from every check I get going into that account.
I HATE living here. I can't have any fucking privacy whatsoever. If I ask one question, I get like 25 back for WHY I asked that question. It's ridiculous.
My mom said if I try to move out with Hannah that she's gonna try an stop me. I said go ahead, you're not her mom. The only reason she wants to stay is so I can fucking pay the bills. I'm sick of doing this shit. I want my own place. If I can't make it on my own, I'll find someone to live with. I DO NOT want to live with my family anymore. I can't live with Diana. I don't trust her. And as long as she's with Tyler, it ain't fucking happening. I don't trust that little mother fucker more than Diana.
Trisha would be alright to live with, but I don't think she'd want to live with me. Lol. Besides she does a lot of shit I don't want Hannah around. I know Erica and Steve sell and whatnot, but it's weed. Trisha's not just on that shit. Ya know?
I'd move in with Nicole, but we've only been together for 6 months on the 22nd of this month. That just seems a little too soon.
Idk. So I'm just gonna try and make it on my own for a while. If it doesn't work, I'll figure something out. :/
That's basically all I have to say right now. I'm so over fighting about shit with people and tweaking out. I DON'T wanna tweak about shit anymore. I hate getting this nervous/anxious/scared or jealous even. But I'm so over it. I'm just gonna try and keep my cool about shit from now on. Even if it means I cry alone at night. :/