Happy December 1st
So I'm in a good mood today and I have no idea why. There's no real reason for it other than the normal excitement a Friday brings in anticipation of a relaxing weekend, but it's more than that. When I realized that today is the first day of December, not only did I begin to get even more excited about the holidays, but I'm beginning to catch a glimpse of light at the end of the tunnel. All year long I've been stuck in a sort of limbo, just waiting to be able to move, change jobs, start fresh again...just move on. And it's finally going to happen. Sure, for now the plan is just to move in with the family for a couple months and work at Starbucks or something, but it's still something new, an end to the monotonous rut, I've found myself in all year. Again, don't get me wrong I am thankful for the amazing people I've met and ministry I've been able to be a part of this year, but I need a change, a new outlook on life.
I must quote Ron Burgundy right now..."I'm in a glass case of emotion." hahaha...sorry, I just couldn't help it, but that's really how I've felt this week after being around family and lots of people in a small house last week and then coming back to wallow in my thoughts and empty apartment without furniture. I've felt drained all week by the idea of not knowing where I was going. Last week, I grew weary of discussing ideas of what possible connections family members might know that can get me somewhere, I mean where were they the last 11 months? Or when I was still looking for my first job last fall? I know they mean well and everything, but how can I say I just want a break of it all and that I'm not really all that worried of figuring it out right now? They just keep wanting to talk about it and encourage me. They never realized that the more we focused on it, the more discouraged I actually became.
But today, right now, I feel more at ease just knowing that there's only three weeks until Christmas in Michigan and then I'll come back for a week to finish up and hand things over and then I'll be packing up and leaving Sweet Home Alabama...hahaha...not necessarily sweet to me, but it is for others.
Happy December 1st! Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!!
I must quote Ron Burgundy right now..."I'm in a glass case of emotion." hahaha...sorry, I just couldn't help it, but that's really how I've felt this week after being around family and lots of people in a small house last week and then coming back to wallow in my thoughts and empty apartment without furniture. I've felt drained all week by the idea of not knowing where I was going. Last week, I grew weary of discussing ideas of what possible connections family members might know that can get me somewhere, I mean where were they the last 11 months? Or when I was still looking for my first job last fall? I know they mean well and everything, but how can I say I just want a break of it all and that I'm not really all that worried of figuring it out right now? They just keep wanting to talk about it and encourage me. They never realized that the more we focused on it, the more discouraged I actually became.
But today, right now, I feel more at ease just knowing that there's only three weeks until Christmas in Michigan and then I'll come back for a week to finish up and hand things over and then I'll be packing up and leaving Sweet Home Alabama...hahaha...not necessarily sweet to me, but it is for others.
Happy December 1st! Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!!