I hate my life...
I freaking hate my life right now. I honestly think that it's not possible to have worse luck than me. Not that I wish all of this to happen to someone else, but that it didn't happen to anyone at all! I mean at first it was Kaci's accident, and then it was learning that she could die again because of an aneurism in her chest the size of a golf ball, to running over a stupid fucking piece of shit rock that completely fucked up my exaust(sp?) pipes, to taking my car to be inspected only to find out it failed and needs not only the exaust to be fixed, but new breaks. A combined estimate was $785.00... Not to mention I wasted $45 to have it inspected to beging with. And then last week, I got a call from my sister Kaci telling me that my step-dad beat the shit out of my mom, almost breaking her jaw, and hospitalizing her. I actually saw her the day after she got beat up for the first time in almost a year. I wanted to just cry and cry for hours it seemed... So I got my car fixed, and it cost me about $300, I took it to get inspected again and it STILL FAILED!!!!!!!!! There is still a fucking leak in the exaust, so I wasted fucking more money. On top of all this, my sister went into open heart surgery on Tuesday to get her aneurism removed where there was a good chance she wouldn't even make it (thankfully, she did.) So I had about $600 saved up for Christmas stuff, and/or to get my car fixed yet again... I got the oil changed today which cost me $45.99, only to find out that my radiator fluid is completely black (it's supposed to be a bluish/green color) and needs to be washed out and re-filled..which equaled another $70... And then, I had to pay my car insurrance today... It all together costs %522, but I only had enough for half of it and paid $260.50. So all in all today, I have spend $367, and all together I have wasted about $350. So not only having money problems, but worrying about my sister and my mom, trying to apply to colleges and get everything done on time, to trying to find a new job, to realizing that I can't get ANYBODY anything for Christmas. I am such a waste of life right now... I hate everything.