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It is just literally unfair. I don't understand how school, homework, band, and my job should all come before my sister. Yes I know everyone is sick of hearing this, and I am sick of saying this. I am so frusterated that I have had no time at all to see Kaci, and especially of all times, right now. She has an aneurysm, which means yet again that she could die. And so it is back to that again. This last month has been the definition of a roller coaster, and no one understands unless they themselves have gone through this. My only sister, the only who really has cared about me our whole lives. The sister who I used to share bunk beds with, the sister who I used to stay up with on Christmas Eve because we were too excited to go to sleep, the sister who I constantly fought with. If God forbid something does happen to her, what do I do? I don't feel like myself anymore, I don't laugh like I used to, I am more stressed times a million. I freak out over stupid things, I have no free time, I'm never home, I barely get to talk to her, my mom blames me for everything going wrong in her life. I just want things to start looking up, just once in my entire life. Why, in God's name, did it have to happen to her, and not me?