i miss you
im bent. im broken. im spinning.
im frustrated. angry. drained.
im leaving. getting out. cant take anymore.
if my car didnt have nails in the tires i would be on my way to a better place. today i realized how superficial some of my relationships with random people are. also realized how id be doing people a favor by leaving for awhile and probably wouldnt even be noticed. because the few that would are coming with me. and its getting to the point where i would recieve any punishment from my parents for leaving without telling because it would be so worth it.
so the car rides home were interesting:
the first one was amusing. i forgot how to drive an automatic car in that you put it in park before you turn it off. so because of that the trunk wouldnt open and the keys wouldnt come out. about 10 minutes later and 100 buttons and a few screams later i realized to put it in park. hehehe oops.
the second one was torture. i still dont know why it was so awkward. we just looked at eachother. he sorta smiled but it was more of a sick smile and i stared. put the car in drive and the only thing said was illinois lost. the only noise was the music and beeping from us texting other people. i wanted to scream. it was awful. i want my car back.
i cant escape. my room is torture. the car is torture. school is terrible torture. my house definitely torture. sigh...i need a break. a good one.
im frustrated. angry. drained.
im leaving. getting out. cant take anymore.
if my car didnt have nails in the tires i would be on my way to a better place. today i realized how superficial some of my relationships with random people are. also realized how id be doing people a favor by leaving for awhile and probably wouldnt even be noticed. because the few that would are coming with me. and its getting to the point where i would recieve any punishment from my parents for leaving without telling because it would be so worth it.
so the car rides home were interesting:
the first one was amusing. i forgot how to drive an automatic car in that you put it in park before you turn it off. so because of that the trunk wouldnt open and the keys wouldnt come out. about 10 minutes later and 100 buttons and a few screams later i realized to put it in park. hehehe oops.
the second one was torture. i still dont know why it was so awkward. we just looked at eachother. he sorta smiled but it was more of a sick smile and i stared. put the car in drive and the only thing said was illinois lost. the only noise was the music and beeping from us texting other people. i wanted to scream. it was awful. i want my car back.
i cant escape. my room is torture. the car is torture. school is terrible torture. my house definitely torture. sigh...i need a break. a good one.