FAILURE
di·vorce/diˈvôrs/
Noun:
The legal dissolution of a marriage by a court or other competent body: "her divorce from her first husband".
It's funny how somthing that is so simply defined means so many thing: heartbreak, broken family, fatherless children, FAILURE. thats how i see it most. I failed. I couldnt do it. I couldnt make him happy. HE DOESNT LOVE ME ANYMORE. now i know that all this blame isnt true, that it is equally our faults, but it doesnt change the out come and it certainly doesnt heal my broken broken heart. Will I live?....yes.....Will i heal?.....Eventually. But what scares me the most is..What will this do to my children? Did i make the right choice? Did i fight hard enough? and What did i do wrong? ... i dont want to wallow in my self pity for too long, because i have children who need me, but sometimes i just cant help it, it hurts so bad. As you can see i have struggled and struggled, but apparently i have only delayed the inevitable ....and to top it off, i brought two innocent people inoto this world, only to leave them with a broken home....FAILURE. PLAIN AND SIMPLE HEARTBREAKING FAILURE. i feel like i have sundowners. i am strong and confident in the daylight, i know i deserve better and i know i can do it.....but as soon as night falls, my broken hearts starts weeping and i lose my way..... my road ahead is rough, without a doubt.....i must find my inner strength and hold on tigt
Noun:
The legal dissolution of a marriage by a court or other competent body: "her divorce from her first husband".
It's funny how somthing that is so simply defined means so many thing: heartbreak, broken family, fatherless children, FAILURE. thats how i see it most. I failed. I couldnt do it. I couldnt make him happy. HE DOESNT LOVE ME ANYMORE. now i know that all this blame isnt true, that it is equally our faults, but it doesnt change the out come and it certainly doesnt heal my broken broken heart. Will I live?....yes.....Will i heal?.....Eventually. But what scares me the most is..What will this do to my children? Did i make the right choice? Did i fight hard enough? and What did i do wrong? ... i dont want to wallow in my self pity for too long, because i have children who need me, but sometimes i just cant help it, it hurts so bad. As you can see i have struggled and struggled, but apparently i have only delayed the inevitable ....and to top it off, i brought two innocent people inoto this world, only to leave them with a broken home....FAILURE. PLAIN AND SIMPLE HEARTBREAKING FAILURE. i feel like i have sundowners. i am strong and confident in the daylight, i know i deserve better and i know i can do it.....but as soon as night falls, my broken hearts starts weeping and i lose my way..... my road ahead is rough, without a doubt.....i must find my inner strength and hold on tigt